Hello! Going from being out and about every weekend with Johnny at the beginning of this year is a far cry from what we do now. With COVID and the fact that my county is now in a threat level red, our weekends have went from full and busy to full of binge watching in the blink of an eye. The worst part? The weekend still ends quickly even though we’re not doing much of anything, lol!
Johnny and I have a pretty standard weekend format that goes a little something like this: Video games, movies, and TV. I am currently obsessed with the video games he gifted me for our anniversary so I have been playing a lot of Paper Mario and Diablo III. We also take turns picking movies to watch in between our viewings of The Last Kingdom and SuperStore – both of which I highly recommend.
Does it sound boring yet? I know it does but it actually isn’t all that bad. For the first time literally since I started working at sixteen, I have weekends that are completely agenda free. All I have to do is sit on the couch and stay safe and I’m confident that Johnny and I can keep doing that.
One of the best parts of our weekends is actually thanks to the change in weather. Because fall temperatures are upon us, it has cooled down our apartment significantly. Believe it or not, I find myself telling Johnny “I’m cold” more often than not now. This makes being stuck in the apartment much more tolerable and there is nothing better than bundling up in hoodies and blankets while it’s nice and crisp in and outdoors!
Speaking of cooling down outdoors, I can’t wait to start taking hikes and doing all of the Halloween themed activities soon. Have fun and keep on staying safe. ❤
How do you spend weekends in quarantine? What is the weather like in your neck of the woods? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Hiii everyone and happy weekend! You might have noticed that I haven’t been very active on my page this past week, even though I had posts publishing, cause pre-writing. And, that is because I came down with a really nasty bout of the flu. It. Was. Awful. What started out as an earache on Tuesday morning led to full blown incapacity by the early afternoon and I was completely down for the count.
We’re talking a fever that reached to 103 at its peak, a sore throat, an earache, chills, sweats, soreness all over, and not a snowball chance in hell of being able to eat anything. I would sweat so badly at night, that I’d wake up and see red all over my sheets because it made my hair color bleed! I am writing this post on Friday afternoon and am just now feeling semi-normal, even though the morning was really rough.
Because of my mom’s ongoing health struggles, I had to be quarantined to my bedroom for three days. This sucked on ice, because my room doesn’t have a TV! But, I was honestly so out of it that it didn’t even matter. Everything that I tried to do from taking a sip of water to swallowing much needed medicine caused me so much pain that there were points when I just started crying. It was totally and completely miserable.
But, after what felt like an eternity, I am finally back on the blogosphere and all I gotta say is thank gawd for pre-writing! I was so pleased when I discovered that all of my days away were covered because I had totally forgot! And, of course, I am so glad to be feeling better and back with all of you here on lifewithlilred. ❤
Helloooo! I hope that all of you are having a wonderful weekend so far. As you can tell by the title of this post, this will be my Final Therapy Update until I choose to go again. I was definitely on the fence about going to my appointment this week, and I ended up canceling it.
I just feel tired of going over the same things week in and week out, and I almost feel like being in therapy gave me an excuse to engage in risky behaviors like binge eating or drinking, because I could just talk about it at my next appointment. My therapy sessions were very helpful to a point, but I felt like the metaphorical wall had been hit, and none of the advice that I was getting was anything that I felt like I could utilize.
This is not to say that I didn’t like my therapist at all, because I really did. But, I also felt like she was trying to force a belief system on me that I was not comfortable with, and didn’t seem to have any other advice but that. Although I could totally research things on my own, I did expect to gain some new insights during therapy and, after a while, I just wasn’t any more.
If a mental rough patch comes up, I do plan on returning again so that I have a safe place to communicate my feelings. But, for now, I am taking my medication daily and seeing what I can do on my own to start improving things for myself.
Has there been a time when therapy has been helpful for you? What are some of your mental health struggles? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Hiii everyone and happy weekend! Ugh, I don’t know about any of you guys, but I have been feeling so blah lately. I am in the process of getting over a flu/cold thingie that lingered on with me for a week and am now just trying to get myself back up to snuff. I had hot and cold flashes, a sore throat, a cold from hell, body aches, and – to top it off – I was on my period for part of it! Could it get any worse?!
During this agonizing week, I had a really hard time keeping up with my 10,000 steps per day walking regimen because I was so weak. And, now, after a week of feeling sluggish with some movement here and there when I was up to it, I am left feeling so blah about everything. The way my body looks, how I’m still feeling the effects of the sniffles from this blasted cold, and my severe lack of energy. Could it get any worse?!
I know that these feelings will pass, and I have been trying really hard to get myself back on track with my walking. But, I am having a hard time shaking away the post sickness blues, even with the lovely weather that Ohio is finally having. It’s been a lot of going through the motions for the past week, and feeling self conscious the entire time, so I am definitely looking forward to feeling back to normal soon so that I can start enjoying my days again.
Has anyone else been dealing with the blahs lately? How do you combat the post sickness blues? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Hi everyone and happy weekend! So this past Thursday I decided to give going to see a therapist a shot. Things in Lil Red’s world have been anything but perfect lately, so I thought I would try my hand at going to have a chat with a professional for the first time in years. Don’t get me wrong, I have friends that I can talk to when I’m feeling GLUM, but who wants to spend BFF time rehashing the most depressing stuff ever? Not me.
I saw a therapist all throughout high school and shortly after and it always seemed to help. And, I have to say, that it definitely felt good to be able to unload some major burdens onto someone who doesn’t know myself or my family a couple of days ago. I’ve been feeling incredibly overwhelmed and depressed as of late and I’m over it. I’m stressed out constantly and I need to just be able to vent to someone and then get up and walk away from it until next time.
I felt a little bit better after my first hour long session on Thursday, which is way better than feeling one hundred percent miserable. AND I have my appointments scheduled for the rest of September and all of October to work on getting these blues shaken away. I felt pretty proud of myself for actually attempting to do something instead of just wallowing in my own misery until things start to get better. I am definitely looking forward to next week’s session!
I’m giving therapy The Old College Try again and I’m excited to start making some improvements for myself. How do you deal with the major blahs? Has therapy helped you now or in the past? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
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Hello everyone and happy weekend!! I sure hope that all of you are feeling a lot better than I am today. I am in a bit of a rut so I will be on a lifewithlilred hiatus this weekend. BUT, rest assured that I will be back this Monday to bring you all of the latest and greatest. OR maybe even this afternoon or tomorrow if I feel so inclined – you never know!
Tell me good things. What are you up to this weekend? How do you stay positive during a rough patch? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Hiii everyone and happy weekend! I hope all of you are having a wonderful and relaxing time and are up to a lot of fun. Unfortunately, things in the world of Lil Red are not going so hot right now so I’ll be MIA for the weekend to be depressed and miserable. -__-
I do have one nice thing to look forward to today though! My Special Olympic figure skaters who I’ve been coaching are having a performance at a skating rink in my neck of the woods this morning. A sensory friendly winter fest will be happening and it should be a lot of fun! I can’t wait to have some proud mama moments when I see my skaters perform their routines that we’ve been working so hard on! So there’s that. 🙂
Asides from that, I’m just really not feeling my life right now. So, if you need me you know where to find me via comments, email, or Facebook. But fear not, I’ll be back with you for the Monday Update soon! Does anyone participate in any winter sports? Who has some big weekend plans? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
^^^ Thanks, Sweet Brown. ❤
Helloooo everyone and TGIF! I’m just dropping in to let you lovelies know that I will be MIA this weekend because it’s my brother’s wedding! Hurray! I’m actually writing this post on Thursday and scheduling it for today because my family and I will be leaving around nine o’clock this morning to get to the destination. I won’t be home until Sunday evening but you can expect to hear from me for the usual Monday Update. Until then, enjoy exploring the archives of lifewithlilred and have a fabulous weekend! Before we go our separate ways, crank up the wedding themed tunes, take a look at some pics of the happy couple, and read some sweet sentiments from yours truly!
Dear Peter and Megan,
I love you both so much and am so thrilled that you’re finally tying the knot! I really admire your love and devotion for one another. It has been a pleasure watching you grow together over your seven year relationship, which is a really long time! Holy smokes! I am super excited to see what the future holds for both of you and for me too, for that matter. Yes, me too, because you gain a wife but I get a new sister!! Megan, prepare yourself for lots of shopping, getting our nails done, and eating Taco Bell four times a day! Welcome to the family and the sisterhood of Lil Red. Sincerest congratulations to my favorite newlyweds and have the best time ever on your honeymoon! I LOVE YOUUUU!!!! ❤ Sarah
I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend – I know I will! What is your favorite wedding themed memory? Do you have any words of advice for Peter and Megan? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Hiii everyone and happy weekend. As you can tell, I’m not feeling too hot right now. If you can recall from my last post, I mentioned being reunited with someone very special to me during my white girl wasted night, so let me go into further detail about that sob story…
Once upon a time in the winter I had the pleasure of meeting one of the most amazing guys ever. I fell head over heels for him but unfortunately things ended on a somewhat sour note. (Not like I wanted it to, of course.) Anyways, after things ended I never really heard from him again, which really hurt me – but that doesn’t mean that I didn’t think about him often and I missed him very much. Eventually it made me too sad to see his posts on Facebook, so I ended up unfollowing him so I wouldn’t see any of his statuses on my newsfeed, but he could still see mine. #SWAG So during white girl wasted night, after I threw back a bottle of wine AKA “liquid courage” I finally worked up the balls to text him. He replied back, and I learned that he was moving back to Florida this weekend to be with his mom and have a fresh start. We texted for a bit more and he asked if I wanted to hang out, and the answer to that was on obvious YES. I’m honestly convinced that we were supposed to see each other before he left…I mean think about it – if I didn’t drunk text him, I would have never known that he was leaving because he was unfollowed on Facebook and we weren’t in touch. (This is the one time that a drunk text has resulted in something good!) He always talks about how things are meant to happen and whatever and I really think that our final hang out was seriously meant to happen. It was so good seeing him and being able to tell him the things that were bothering me. We could have sat in silence all night and I would have been happy. I cried like a bitch so much that night…I just couldn’t help it. I felt so overwhelmed seeing him again with good and bad emotions and I was drunk so that didn’t help either. My heart aches at the thought of him being so far away, but I’m thankful that seeing him for the last time resulted in happy memories that I can cherish. When I got home yesterday morning, I showered and then proceeded to get into bed to cry all day. Lucky for me, I have an amazing sister because she did her damndest at cheering me up. She took me to Taco Bell, dyed my hair, listened to my sob story over and over again, and cuddled me real good before I fell asleep. She’s obviously the best sister ever. I feel somewhat better, but it still hurts I guess. When I walked into the kitchen a bit ago, I was clearly upset and finally caved and told my mom what was bothering me and instantly started crying again. I’m starting to annoy myself, because I never cry over guys. I’ve never really felt strongly enough about any of the guys or girls who I’ve dated to shed a tear over them, let alone a million. And all in the course of a day and a half? Ugh, hello heartache. I feel somewhat stupid, because we weren’t even seeing each other for that long, but I can’t help the way I feel, ya know? Believe me, if I could control my emotions I would have never let myself be swept off my feet by him. It’s whatever, I guess. Nothing is going to make him come back to Ohio and I probably won’t see him again for a very long time – if ever. I just have to accept it and move on, but it’s hard. It’s so fucking hard. #fml
Alright crew, I’m off to do homework and be a whiny baby for the day so I will talk to you all later. I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend! Have any of you had a situation similar to mine? How did you deal with someone you care about moving away? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah