So today is my mom and dad’s 34th wedding anniversary! Hurray! Congratulations to my wonderful parent’s for being able to put up with each other for thirty-four whole years and are STILL going strong! I honestly think that’s such an amazing accomplishment considering we live in a world where long standing marriages are becoming increasingly rare. I genuinely believe that I have the best parents that a gal could ask for, so I for one am so thankful that their marriage has been so successful! Thirty-four years is a long time, but here’s to a million more happy years together in a perfect, blissful, and slightly annoying union! Last night my family went out to dinner to celebrate my mom and dad and as their anniversary treat to themselves they both ordered a drink that wasn’t water! Big spenders! Both of my parents are the farthest thing from lavish when it comes to celebrating the milestones of their marriage, so a nice and low key dinner was the perfect way to celebrate their special day. It was a really beautiful time. Happy, happy anniversary mom and dad! Good job!! I love you both so much! ❤ ❤ ❤
^^^ Cutest. Couple. EVER!
I hope all of you wonderful readers continue to enjoy your weekend! Does anyone have a special occasion that they’re celebrating this weekend? Does anyone have a birthday or an anniversary coming up? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Heyyyy everyone! So this past week I’ve been having the most god awful dreams ever – assaulted in a Taco Bell parking lot, assaulted in a mall (so many assaults!), and lots of murder. Luckily last night I had a totally amazing dream to make up for all of the shitty ones. I dreamed that I got a job as a character actor at Universal Studios in Orlando, Florida. It was seriously the best dream I’ve ever had and it felt SO real. As soon as I woke up I thought that my dream was my reality and I was so disappointed when I realized that I was still in my bed in lame old Ohio. But guess what? My family is vacationing at Universal Studios this August! So while I was in bed, I grabbed my iPod and Googled different careers at Universal Studios until I found the acting jobs. As I looked through the audition listings for all of the different character jobs at the amusement park, I saw that they were basically holding auditions for different characters and shows every two days. So if I’m lucky, there will hopefully be a bunch of different auditions that I can go to while my family is in the area. While looking further into the audition requirements, I was happy to find out that pretty much all you need is a one minute comedic monologue – which is easy peasy lemon squeezey! In case you guys weren’t aware, I’m a huge theater nerd and have acted in multiple shows, so a comedic monologue is no problemo. And lucky for me, I have the most perfect one in mind to brush up on if there are available audition times during my vacation. I mean really? How cool would that be to be a character actor at Universal Studios?! (Which happens to be one of my literal favorite places in the entire world!) My dream last night was just too cool to pass up a perfect opportunity to at least try my hand at an audition. I don’t think I would forgive myself if I didn’t give an audition my best shot while I just happen to be in the area – which is a whopping eighteen hours away from Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio! So why not, right? And no matter what happens, it will be an amazing experience and I’ll be able to say that I tried my absolute best!
I hope all of you are having a fabulous weekend so far! Are any of you into acting? What was the last show you performed in? Are you or someone you know a character actor at an amusement park? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Heyyy everyone! So I know you’re all awaiting with baited breath to hear how my summer classes are going – and for the most part they’re all going great! I started my math and Sociology class on Tuesday, and apparently I won’t be starting my Social Psychology course until June 8th which came as a rude shock. (So now I only have eight weeks to complete that course. -__-) At first I was pretty overwhelmed by everything because let me tell you – it’s a lot! In all of my classes we’re going through about two chapters worth of work and information per week to finish each course in a ten week time period…it’s a bit much! (And by a bit I mean a lot.) Despite the excessive work load, I’m feeling pretty good about everything for the most part. I’ve been tucked in at the local Starbucks basically every day this week with a bag full of my textbooks, laptop, laptop battery, headphones, notebooks, planner, and writing utensils to keep me company. Each day I usually spend four hours at Starbucks, then I go home and take a little break to let my brain breathe, and then I start up again for another two or three hours. I’ll tell you what – by the end of the day I’m exhausted and my brain feels fried. I’m learning a lot of information every day and I swear my brain is running out of room to store it all in. My Sociology class is easy peasy, it’s basically just reading the textbook. But my math class is already a major frustration. I’m taking all of my courses online this summer and it’s just so difficult trying to learn new math skills over the computer. Yesterday the chapter we were working on had to do with subsets and yada, yada, yada and I was so confused. I read the chapter multiple times, I watched the videos about the subject, I looked through the Power Point presentations, and I “chatted” online with a tutor for a solid thirty-five minutes and I still didn’t understand a damn thing. That’s what I get for taking a math class online, I guess. Luckily, I posted a Facebook status yesterday asking for help from anyone good at math and one of my favorite customers from PacSun messaged me saying that he would help! So we’re gonna meet up for coffee tonight so he can try to explain things to me. Fingers crossed that I walk away with a new understanding on stupid subsets! 😉
On the bright not school related side, my 21st birthday is coming up very soon! June 7th, to be exact!!! So rest assured that this entire upcoming week will basically be me telling you guys how excited I am to turn the big 2-1 like a million times…Sorry not sorry! 🙂 And if you feel like sending Lil Red some birthday lovin, you can always get me a box of my Vidal Sassoon Runway Red hair dye from the London Luxe collection! I like to have multiple boxes handy at all times, so feel free to add to my stockpile! THANKS! 😉 ❤
^^^^ Study break jams! GETTIN DOWN ON FRIDAYYYYYYYY! #AYYYY
Well I must be off to finish my Sociology work and then I’ll be done with everything until Monday! Hurray! I’m so ready for a fun filled stress free weekend – god knows I need it! Does anyone else have a birthday coming up? What are you doing to celebrate? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Howdy everyone and TGIF!! Omg guys I had the most fabulous night with my sweet best friend Lea yesterday! It was a terrific evening of crafting, eating hella Cheez-Its, and being straight up silly – it was perfection. The last time we hung out we tried making a canvas art craft of a night sky over looking a city silhouette….unfortunately we couldn’t get past painting our canvas black and dousing it with glitter so we called it a night. But last evening we were dedicated to making something pretty out of our black canvas, and this was our final result:
^^^ So adorable! Mine is the one on the left and Lea’s is obviously the one on the right! Here’s the step by step guide on how we made our cute canvas craft: #ohyoucraftyhuh
Step 1) Paint your canvas black. (Optional)
Step 2) Pour glitter all over your freshly painted canvas. (Optional)
Step 3) Cry. (Optional)
Step 4) Give up. (Optional)
Step 5) Try again! Lea and I decided to go balls to the wall with this craft so we just started painting over our glittery black canvas however we pleased. I was trying to go for a more sunset-y vibe…and I’m honestly not sure what vibe Lea was going for – but it turned out great!
Step 6) Find a silhouette picture on the computer of whatever you like and cut it out. Or if you’re an overachiever and can draw well, feel free to draw out a silhouette. Lea and I are both a big fan of the cutesy couple images, so that’s what we both opted for. But it really can be anything – a giraffe, a toilet, a bomb…it’s up to you!
Step 7) Glue on your silhouette and bask in the glory of your craftiness!
Throughout our evening Lea and I basically annihilated a bag of Cheez-Its – as you can see by my featured image photo, and it was the most fulfilling snacking experience I’ve ever had. So the answer is yes, there probably is Cheez-It residue all over my canvas. After we completed our craft, we spent the rest of our time together creeping on people on Facebook, laying in bed being silly, and making up quotes that historical figures and celebrities definitely didn’t say. For example, when we posted our picture of our craftiness on Facebook we captioned it with “A steady hand and a calm heart” – Elenore Roosevelt…..Okay – maybe it’s not that funny BUT it was SO funny to us!! I’m so happy that I got to have an evening off from drowning in homework to have some much needed girl time with my darling. We had such a blast and by the time I got home I felt rejuvenated enough to complete the rest of my work at the prime time of 11:30 at night! #dedication
I hope all of you guys are having an awesome day so far! What is everyone up to this weekend? What have you been crafting recently? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Hi hi hi everyone! So my summer classes started today and everything is good so far, but I decided to take a quick break to tell you guys a super sweet story about my beloved nail tech Vinny! I was having a not so hot day yesterday, which I mentioned while Vinny and I were texting. After flourishing me with compliments, Vinny sent me a link to his favorite classical song to help me relax:
The song was absolutely gorgeous and as you guys know I fucking love U2, so I texted Vinny to thank him for sharing his favorite song with me. He then texted me back telling me to check the comments on the video, so I got back on YouTube and found the video again. As I looked through the comment section, this is what I found:
^^^ SO sweet. Once I saw this comment I immediately started ugly crying, but it was a happy ugly cry if that makes sense – Haha I was seriously so touched by my dear friend’s gesture that I just couldn’t help it! I texted Vinny to let him know my current crying situation and then he told me that the song he sent me should be played at my wedding. I couldn’t help but roll my eyes and laugh mid cry at such a classic Vinny statement. I then sent him a correction to his previous text, telling him that the song can be playing at *OUR* wedding! Vinny and I have a very special friendship and we both love each other very much, but there was something so special to me about our exchange last night that I just had to share it. It was just so damn sweet and it was exactly what I needed after a not so great day. So here’s to you Vinny – you’re more than just my nail tech, you’re seriously one of my best friends. Thank you for being you and thank you for always treating me like your princess. I LOVE YOU! #teamvinny
I hope everyone is having an absolutely fabulous day so far! Does anyone else have a special relationship with their hair dresser, nail tech, ect? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
So I know I talk about my mom frequently on here, but I feel like I rarely mention my dad. I figured now would be a great time to introduce him to all of my fabulous readers considering an incident occurred with him today that paints a perfect picture of who he is as a person. Before you read this little story, there’s a few things that you should know about my dad…He’s a quiet man who rarely shows any type of emotion. Despite his stoic facade, his love for his family is so evident. This afternoon I was outside reading on the deck, which is so gorgeous because my pops has planted countless flowers, vegetables, and other plants in pots on the deck or in the soil surrounding it. While I was reading, my dad came out to water all of his plant children because it’s been super dry in my neck of the woods this past week. After he was done watering his plants, he sat down on the stairs of our deck that overlook our spacious backyard. Something told me that I really needed to sit down beside him and talk – or if anything just enjoy the beauty of all of the plants that he brought life to. I’m not gonna lie – I’m in a mood today. I had a not so ideal time on a date yesterday, and I’m SO hungry (which you guys know all about if you read my last post “Monday Update: Mehhh Edition”). Because of my lack of eating, I’ve been having dizzy spells and a pounding headache all day, so it felt so good to just sit down and rest my head on my dad’s shoulder. Usually with my dad I have to initiate the conversation to get him talking, but he said the first word which was kind of shocking. After my dad nonchalantly brought up his pure hatred for our neighbors, who we’ve had an ongoing feud with since we moved into my neighborhood, we discussed this further for a solid fifteen minutes. (Our neighbors despise us enough that they planted a line of evergreen trees on our property line to block their view of our home.) My dad then proceeded to tell me this story about how him and the patriarch of the household were talking shit to each other and my dad straight up told the guy “you’ll be dead before the trees are big enough to block your view”. Hahahaha! I’ve never heard this story before and it was SO funny to me. After we had our ice breaker conversation of thoroughly putting down our neighbors, I told him that my hang out with this one guy didn’t go so hot yesterday. I felt like it would be better to discuss this with my dad, who doesn’t have an emotional bone in his body as opposed to my mom who would drown me with a million questions about the day. I’m glad I followed my instinct to tell my dad, because he literally said one thing about my confession and it was “You should really join farmersonly.com”. He then told me to get up so I could test out the hammock that he put out over the weekend. Baffled by his last ridiculous comment about me finding a nice “country boy” on a dating site for “good ol’ country folk” (as their commercial boasts), what else could I do? I got up and followed him to the hammock which he helped me on so my clumsy self wouldn’t fall off. Once I was on, I laid down and my dad pushed the hammock back and forth and let me be a whiny twenty year old girl until I felt like going inside. I’m so glad that I had my sunglasses on so he wouldn’t see me crying, but I just couldn’t help it – that’s how much that moment with my dad meant to me.
There was something so incredible to me about this exchange that I had with my dad. I really can’t recall the last time that I had a real “father/daughter” moment with him and I was so surprised that I didn’t have to prompt him to show me affection. Seriously as soon as I mentioned my not so good day yesterday it was like something clicked inside of him. I could feel him wanting to give me a special experience after a not so good one – and thanks to my dad, I immediately felt better. I know my dad doesn’t read my blog, but if he just happens to stumble upon this post – then this is me telling him that I love him so much and that I’ll never ever forget our afternoon together on the deck…And yes, I’m absolutely crying as I type this. ❤
^^^ I feel like I post this video a lot, but it’s my favorite song in the world so I don’t care. My dad was the one who introduced me to U2 when I was a little girl and they remain my favorite band to this day. “Beautiful Day” truly emanates pure joy and with a few simple but powerful gestures my dad got me feeling happy again – so this ones for you dad. Thank you.
I hope all of you are having a terrific Memorial Day! Fair warning, my summer classes start tomorrow so you probably won’t be hearing from me. But as always, you know how to get a hold of me through my comment section or via email! Questions? Concerns? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Heyyy everyone and happy Memorial Day! (Warning: This post contains references to eating disorders – if that makes you uncomfortable feel free not to read!)
So I’ve been having an admittedly rough time with food lately. I’ve been restricting a lot and the worst part is, is that it doesn’t really bother me…which isn’t good at all. It’s so bad how it’s almost fun to me to see how long I can go without having a bite to eat. During the day I’ll drink at least one glass of a beverage with calories in it like lemonade or orange juice so I can get some sugar in me, but other than that I feel like I’ve put myself back on the “no meal a day” diet – along with a lot of cigarettes. I feel like this struggle would bother me a lot more if I wasn’t seeing visible physical changes every day that I go without food…more prominent collarbones, protruding hip bones – I straight up revel in the pleasure I get from looking in the mirror and seeing something other than fat. During my years of being bulimic, I always told myself that I could never dabble in anorexic behaviors because I didn’t have the will power to do it. But now that I have achieved going days in a row without eating it’s almost like I’ve gained a new skill which is weirdly exciting to me. I remember when the celebrity Meghan Trainer got a lot of backlash for saying that she wasn’t “strong enough” to be anorexic – and she’s right…it’s not a weak mans disorder, so the fact that I have the mental strength that some people just don’t have makes me feel good. Yesterday when I got home in the evening I told myself I would eat, but the thought of eating was disgusting to me and I lost my appetite. I’m one of those people who physically can’t eat if I’m not hungry – I just can’t do it, so when I got home and my appetite was completely gone, I saw no point in making myself eat. Anorexia was always an appealing disorder to me during my extreme cutting and bulimic stages because it was something that no one else would really notice. Losing weight is a good thing to most people, so the disorder could go unrecognized as opposed to the obvious slashed wrists or retching in the bathroom. You guys are probably reading this and thinking about how “crazy” I am and yada yada yada – and I know I’m not making the best choices for myself…But unfortunately, I find joy in these poor decisions which makes it even harder to stop. I know I keep saying that I should go to therapy, but it’s just so unappealing to me. I’m not interested in digging up my past for the millionth time with a different therapist out of the countless ones that I’ve seen before. It really is a cycle of complete misfortune, jumping from one method of self harm to the next – but I just haven’t the faintest idea on what to do when I feel like nothing but beating myself up makes me feel better. Ugh, sorry guys that was so heavy but I really needed to vent…I always find it easy to be super open with my thoughts, struggles, and the way I’m feeling – but it was especially easy typing this considering my iTunes has been playing the most emo music in my collection on shuffle for the past half hour. Lol, shameful.
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I hope all of you guys are having a fabulous Memorial Day! Do you have any exciting plans for the day? How was everyone’s weekend? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Helloo everyone and happy Memorial Day weekend! So you guys might have noticed that I’ve been writing a lot more than usual this past week or so because I’ve been on a nice little break before I start my summer classes at Tri-C. Well my classes start on Tuesday, so you might not be hearing from me as much as usual, because I’ll have a buttload of classwork each week to take care of for three different classes. And in case you forgot, I’ll be taking Intro to Sociology, Social Psychology, and another math course. The best thing about the math class that I’m taking is that I’ll be officially done with anything math related if I pass the class – so keep your fingers crossed for me! My summer semester lasts for ten weeks, as opposed to the usual fourteen to sixteen week semester, so I’ll have a lot of work to complete in a short period of time. I’m slightly nervous about it, but I think that I should be just fine. I’m taking all of my courses online this summer so I don’t have to drive back and forth to Cleveland, so I’m looking forward to being able to hang out at the Starbucks down the street from my house to complete all of my work. So not only is this post a friendly reminder of the possibility of me being MIA every once and a while, but it’s ALSO a friendly reminder to make sure you follow my page so you can keep up on the latest and greatest once I get around to posting it! I can promise you that I’ll be up to a lot of fun shenanigans this summer since I’ll be turning 21 at the beginning of June (holla!), so you don’t wanna miss out on any of that good stuff! And as always, if you have any suggestions, questions, or concerns – you all know where you can find me in the comment section of my blog or via email! 🙂 ❤
^^^ It’s shameful how much I like this song and I’m so hopelessly in love with A$AP Rocky – HUBBA HUBBA!!!
How is everyone’s weekend going so far? Do you have any exciting Memorial Day plans? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! And pretty please wish me luck on all of my upcoming summer classes! Much love. -Sarah
Hey there everyone and happy Sunday! I hope all of you are having a fabulous Memorial Day weekend! I don’t know if you recall, but alllllllll the way back at the end of October, I wrote a post called “Letter To Myself”. The post contained the letter that we had to write ourselves in my very first college class at Tri-C. We had to address an envelope to ourselves, and our teacher told us that she would mail us our letters before the beginning of summer. I received my letter in the mail yesterday, and I thought it would be fun to put it on lifewithlilred one more time and reflect on it. So here is my letter to myself, which was written on October 28th, 2014:
Dear Future Sarah,
First of all, let me say how proud I am of you. You had a goal of going to college way back in September, and you achieved that. I trust that as you read this now you’re well on your way to earning your Associate of Arts degree. My wish for your entire future, from the time you read this now until the day you die – is that you continue to do things that make you happy. That can be anything: From theater, which you love so much, or blogging, or even pursuing a higher degree in school. As long as you’re doing something that you love, you’re succeeding. I hope that as the months go by you recognize all of the potential that people constantly tell you that you have. You are worthy of a beautiful life. I know in the past you had a hard time believing that, and I hope someday you can truly believe and embrace that yourself. I also would like to remind you of how far you’ve come in your life. It’s not a bad thing to remember your not so great past and celebrate the milestones that you have accomplished, even in your darkest times. You are beautiful inside and out – take pride in who you are because you matter. You are important. You are capable of greatness.
With all of my love,
Sarah
^^^ Isn’t that precious?
When I read this letter again for the first time in over half a year, I was so touched by everything that my past tense self said to me. The thing that stuck out the most was when I wrote that “as long as you’re doing something that you love, you’re succeeding.” I really think that my past tense self was on to something, because present day Sarah has never loved anything as much as being in school in a long time. For once in my life, I feel really good about myself and where I’m at. It makes me so happy to have my friends and family tell me how proud they are of me or how good I’m doing and for me to actually believe that. Before I would have just laughed them off with a “yeah right” but now I can actually look them in the eye and thank them, because I’m firm in the belief that I am doing awesome. Starting college was the best decision that I’ve made in a long time, and I’m so proud of myself for following through with all of my classes and having amazing grades to show for it. (Straight A’s for days!) I’m so excited to start my summer classes on Tuesday, and receiving my letter to myself was the extra push I needed to get my mind back in school mode! I’m ready to take on the world and I’m ready to kick major ass this summer! #ballin
^^^ Obsessed! I’ve been listening to The Used every day for the past two weeks and I’m so not mad about it!
What is everyone up to on their Memorial Day weekend? Have any of you written a letter to yourself before? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
Omggg guys. I had the most insane, weird, ridiculously amazing dream last night!! It was one of those dreams that instantly gave me the thoughts “wtf?” and “I wish that it was real” as soon as I woke up. I need to talk about it before I forget it!! I’m not sure if I mentioned this before, but I’m a huge Harry Potter fan. I’ve read the books and seen the movies multiple times and I like to think that I can answer almost every HP trivia question thrown at me. With that in mind, you’ll understand how devastating it was for me to wake up from a dream that revolved around the adorable red headed Weasley twins, Fred and George. In my dream I think I was at some type of family get together – at least that’s the vibe I was getting considering I remember seeing my cousins and aunt and uncles in the dream world. Family get togethers usually invoke the image of sunshine, picnics, or a lovely welcoming home…But in my dream we were in some dark, musty, super janky building – and oh yeah, the Weasley twins just happened to be there. I remember doing a double take when I first spotted the twins in the dilapidated location and doing the classic “is that who I think it is?” to whomever was standing by me. And the thing was, it wasn’t even like it was the actors who play Fred and George….it was the ACTUAL Fred and George fresh out of Harry Potter. Be still my heart!!! So after I got confirmation that it was indeed the twin dynamos, my dream self worked up the courage to go talk to them. When I approached the boys, they were huddled over a piece of paper and writing feverishly. I asked them what they were doing and they both flashed me their classic cheeky grin and held out the paper. On the paper was a list of every single person who was at the get together with comments written beside all of the attendees. It was seriously like the ghetto version of the “Burn Book” from Mean Girls. I can recall my eyes scanning the page and trying to decipher the shitty hand writing. I could make out comments like “fat”, “tall glass of water”, and “lose some weight”. #RUDE!!! And then finally I found my name on the seemingly endless list of guests. The handwriting for my name and the comments was clear and perfect – and I swear the lighting in the dank and dimly lit room got better. By my name was the comment “most beautiful girl in the entire world” and I seriously freaked out. My heart was swooning, I was blushing like a thirteen year old, and I was totally smitten….and naturally I WOKE UP! 😦 As soon as my alarm went off I was SO pissed, because I was so aware of the amazing dream I had just had and I woke up right when things were getting interesting! I sincerely hope that my Fred and George dream comes back to me again tonight, because I’m very curious to see how it ends!!
^^^ I LOVE POTTER PUPPET PALS!
Have you guys had any crazy dreams lately? What do you think will happen next in my Fred and George dream? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Happy Saturday. -Sarah
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