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Monday Update: Birthday Blues Edition -__-

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Monday Update: Birthday Blues Edition -__-

Heyyy everyone and happy Monday! So it was my 21st birthday yesterday and unfortunately I spent most of the day in bed crying. Despite having the worst birthday ever, there were still some really fun parts of my birthday week that deserve some recognition. On Thursday my beloved nail tech Vinny treated me to a beautiful new set of talons and a beyond generous Starbucks gift card. He also plans on taking me out for dinner and drinks sometime this week which is so sweet of him. My trip to the Toledo Zoo on Friday with my precious Lea was also a really wonderful way to celebrate – I just love her! We’re going out this evening for a night on the town too, so that should definitely help shake away the birthday blues of the major disappointment that was Saturday night and Sunday. The entire situation was just stupid as fuck and I’m not about to go into major details about it, but my night out left me feeling like I got a million birthday slaps in the face so it’s no wonder I spent most of my actual birthday bawling my eyes out. Whatever. Lots of my friends have texted and called me so they can take me out to dinner or drinks this week, so I guess that’s nice. Nothing is going to make my birthday night out any better but at least I’ll have a bunch of other plans to somewhat make up for it. And even though the night out and actual birthday was complete shit, I did get some totally gorgeous birthday gifts from my family and friends which was so sweet! Take a look at some of my fabulous new goodies:

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^^^ So sweet!!! There’s actually a really adorable story behind my Lil Red birdhouse decorated by my darling Lea: So one night during a crafting extravaganza, we thought that it would be super fun to paint some birdhouses as a switch up from our usual canvas art. We were both SO excited about this idea but as the night of painting continued we both became more and more disappointed with how our birdhouses were turning out. Lea’s looked really cute – mine looked like complete ASS, so I didn’t even bother taking it home. I told her the only way that my birdhouse would be acceptable was if it was black, red, and covered in glitter…and lo and behold, that was exactly how Lea decorated it as part of my gift. Not only did she craft me a birdhouse that’s perfect for Lil Red, but she also gave me a plethora of other thoughtful presents as well – a new Starbucks mug, a 21 drinking goblet, a minion shot glass, wine, and much more! Our entire day at the zoo was seriously a gift in itself, but my sweet girl went above and beyond in the gift giving department and It really did warm my heart! Do I have an amazing best friend or what?! My sister also got me a real winner of a gift as well – Carlos Santana lace up, knee high, wedged gladiator sandals. I’ve legitimately wanted a pair for over a year now and the pair Kristen picked out for me are simply perfect. I can’t wait to wear these bad boys all summer long with everything from dresses and maxi skirts to sassy little short shorts! So fierce. My one older brother Andrew gave me some cash money, which is great because I need to go renew my license which I know for a fact isn’t free! And then my other brother, Peter got me two tickets to see AWOLNATION on June 30th when they play at the House Of Blues in Cleveland! I CAN’T WAIT!!! It was exactly what I wanted, so mad props to him! I got a cornucopia of goodies from my parents – my Betsey Johnson telephone purse, a new dress from Urban Outfitters, moolah, and they restocked all of my makeup and skin care products that I use from The Body Shop. Everyone was so generous and I’m beyond thankful for all of the wonderful and thoughtful gifts – all of them are perfect!

When I think about all of the lovely individual hang outs I’ve had with my friends and family and all of the gorgeous 21st birthday gifts that I received it kind of makes up for the completely awful weekend I had – but only kind of. All of the gifts in the world doesn’t make my hurt feelings feel better and it definitely doesn’t take away any of the disappointment that I’m still feeling, but what can you do? I’m looking forward to all of the dinners and drinks this week with some of my favorite people, so hopefully after all of that merriment I’ll start getting over the literal worst birthday outing I’ve ever had in my life. #overdramatic #dontcare

I hope all of you are having a fabulous Monday so far! I regrettably must be off to go get some school work done and possibly take a nap! I’m so tired! But until then, how was everyone’s weekend? What are your plans for the week? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah

It’s My Party & I’ll Cry If I Want To

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It’s My Party & I’ll Cry If I Want To

Hiiii everyone and happy 21st birthday to me! Unfortunately my night out yesterday and day today have been anything but happy so I’m really not in the best of moods right now. I don’t feel like getting into all the details about it at the moment, but make sure you tune in for the Monday Update tomorrow so you can hear my sob story and feel sorry for me! 😉 Long story short: I went to bed crying last night and woke up only to cry some more this morning – so cue the cheesy Lesley Gore classic and let’s get mopey!

^^^ Yayyyyy. Now it’s time for the shameless “it’s my birthday so share my blog” plug…..In 5, 4, 3, 2, 1….

Hey there! In case you weren’t aware, today is Lil Red’s 21st birthday! If you want to be extra nice to me, then pretty please give my blog a share! If you want to be semi nice to me, then give my blog a follow! And if you want to be nice to me, then send some good vibes my way because god knows I need them right about now! I’ve been legitimately laying in bed feeling like a great big sad sack since I woke up this morning. #fml

So that’s that, I suppose. I hope all of you fabulous readers are having a much better day than mine! What was the worst birthday experience you’ve ever had? Does anyone have a time machine so I can have a birthday do over? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah

SARAH’S BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN: It’s here and it’s not that great. 😦

Some Food For Thought

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Some Food For Thought

Hey there everyone and happy Thursday. So I’ve recently been on the biggest Neil Gaiman kick ever and have been completely devouring his graphic novel series Sandman. I just finished volume five entitled A Game Of You, in which one of the main characters is a young man named Alvin transitioning into the gorgeous and sassy Wanda. Wanna know the best part about this story….it was published in 1993. While reading this twenty-two year old graphic novel this afternoon I couldn’t help but be amazed that I was reading such a relevant tale especially now in the light of the metamorphosis of Caitlyn Jenner. It made me so incredibly happy to be reading Wanda’s story and I couldn’t help but smile over the similarities between a fictional red headed transitioning male and the newly transitioned Jenner. It touched my soul to know that there are people in this world – such as Neil Gaiman and the Sandman creators who are accepting and loving of everything and everyone. But it also completely broke my heart that there are still people in the world who are degrading and insulting to such a beautiful and vulnerable group that is the LBGT community. It saddened me that some of the people in Wanda’s made up world still called her Alvin and referred to her as a “him”. It made my heart hurt for Caitlyn Jenner and any person being ridiculed and shunned just for being who they are. As I hungrily read through Wanda’s story this afternoon she became more and more real to me. She felt like me. She felt like a friend. And she could very well feel a lot like you. Unfortunately in A Game Of You, Miss Wanda had an untimely death but there were some really powerful scenes that took place at her funeral. There was one particular image that really stuck out to me in the graphic novel that I felt a strong desire to share with you guys. Take a look:

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^^^ Isn’t that amazing? This picture literally sent chills down my spine and filled my eyes with tears. So the point of this post? Wanda is real. Caitlyn Jenner is real. The struggle that people have with gender identity, their sexuality, an addiction, ect is real. The point of this post? I guess it’s me telling you guys to open your eyes and open your hearts just a little bit more to these struggles if you have your hesitations. Neil Gaiman created Wanda in 1993 and it’s now 2015. In A Game Of You there were those who loved and accepted Wanda and those who were adamant in voicing their disgust about her. Sadly, twenty-two years later there are still those who are close minded enough to call our Wanda’s, our Caitlyn’s, and our dear friends in the LBGT community names that I can’t even bring myself to type. There are those who still spit their poison and hope that their venom will begin to wither away the gorgeous spirits of such an amazing group of individuals. But luckily, there are those (like myself) who will offer their support and a kind word every step of the way to those who need it. This is a Lil Red PSA letting anyone who is struggling with anything at all know that I love you, I’m here for you, and your triumphs and success means the world to me. The end.

I hope all of you guys are having a wonderful day so far! Mine is alright, thanks for asking! 😉 I’m actually pretty excited because tonight I get the princess treatment at the nail salon for my birthday! BTW – I’ll be out of office tomorrow because I’ll be going to the Toledo Zoo with my best friend Lea for my birthday day trip! I’m so excited! But as always, you know how to reach me via the comment section or my email! And please know, that I will not tolerate any negativity on this post and your comments will be deleted point blank period. Questions? Concerns? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah

SARAH’S BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN: 3 DAYS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Dream Ever!

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Best Dream Ever!

Heyyyy everyone! So this past week I’ve been having the most god awful dreams ever – assaulted in a Taco Bell parking lot, assaulted in a mall (so many assaults!), and lots of murder. Luckily last night I had a totally amazing dream to make up for all of the shitty ones. I dreamed that I got a job as a character actor at Universal Studios in Orlando, Florida. It was seriously the best dream I’ve ever had and it felt SO real. As soon as I woke up I thought that my dream was my reality and I was so disappointed when I realized that I was still in my bed in lame old Ohio. But guess what? My family is vacationing at Universal Studios this August! So while I was in bed, I grabbed my iPod and Googled different careers at Universal Studios until I found the acting jobs. As I looked through the audition listings for all of the different character jobs at the amusement park, I saw that they were basically holding auditions for different characters and shows every two days. So if I’m lucky, there will hopefully be a bunch of different auditions that I can go to while my family is in the area. While looking further into the audition requirements, I was happy to find out that pretty much all you need is a one minute comedic monologue – which is easy peasy lemon squeezey! In case you guys weren’t aware, I’m a huge theater nerd and have acted in multiple shows, so a comedic monologue is no problemo. And lucky for me, I have the most perfect one in mind to brush up on if there are available audition times during my vacation. I mean really? How cool would that be to be a character actor at Universal Studios?! (Which happens to be one of my literal favorite places in the entire world!) My dream last night was just too cool to pass up a perfect opportunity to at least try my hand at an audition. I don’t think I would forgive myself if I didn’t give an audition my best shot while I just happen to be in the area – which is a whopping eighteen hours away from Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio! So why not, right? And no matter what happens, it will be an amazing experience and I’ll be able to say that I tried my absolute best!

I hope all of you are having a fabulous weekend so far! Are any of you into acting? What was the last show you performed in? Are you or someone you know a character actor at an amusement park? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah

Letter To Myself; A Reflection

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Letter To Myself; A Reflection

Hey there everyone and happy Sunday! I hope all of you are having a fabulous Memorial Day weekend! I don’t know if you recall, but alllllllll the way back at the end of October, I wrote a post called “Letter To Myself”. The post contained the letter that we had to write ourselves in my very first college class at Tri-C. We had to address an envelope to ourselves, and our teacher told us that she would mail us our letters before the beginning of summer. I received my letter in the mail yesterday, and I thought it would be fun to put it on lifewithlilred one more time and reflect on it. So here is my letter to myself, which was written on October 28th, 2014:

Dear Future Sarah,

First of all, let me say how proud I am of you. You had a goal of going to college way back in September, and you achieved that. I trust that as you read this now you’re well on your way to earning your Associate of Arts degree. My wish for your entire future, from the time you read this now until the day you die – is that you continue to do things that make you happy. That can be anything: From theater, which you love so much, or blogging, or even pursuing a higher degree in school. As long as you’re doing something that you love, you’re succeeding. I hope that as the months go by you recognize all of the potential that people constantly tell you that you have. You are worthy of a beautiful life. I know in the past you had a hard time believing that, and I hope someday you can truly believe and embrace that yourself. I also would like to remind you of how far you’ve come in your life. It’s not a bad thing to remember your not so great past and celebrate the milestones that you have accomplished, even in your darkest times. You are beautiful inside and out – take pride in who you are because you matter. You are important. You are capable of greatness.

With all of my love,

Sarah

^^^ Isn’t that precious?

When I read this letter again for the first time in over half a year, I was so touched by everything that my past tense self said to me. The thing that stuck out the most was when I wrote that “as long as you’re doing something that you love, you’re succeeding.” I really think that my past tense self was on to something, because present day Sarah has never loved anything as much as being in school in a long time. For once in my life, I feel really good about myself and where I’m at. It makes me so happy to have my friends and family tell me how proud they are of me or how good I’m doing and for me to actually believe that. Before I would have just laughed them off with a “yeah right” but now I can actually look them in the eye and thank them, because I’m firm in the belief that I am doing awesome. Starting college was the best decision that I’ve made in a long time, and I’m so proud of myself for following through with all of my classes and having amazing grades to show for it. (Straight A’s for days!) I’m so excited to start my summer classes on Tuesday, and receiving my letter to myself was the extra push I needed to get my mind back in school mode! I’m ready to take on the world and I’m ready to kick major ass this summer! #ballin

^^^ Obsessed! I’ve been listening to The Used every day for the past two weeks and I’m so not mad about it!

What is everyone up to on their Memorial Day weekend? Have any of you written a letter to yourself before? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah

Weirdest/Best Dream EVER!

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Weirdest/Best Dream EVER!

Omggg guys. I had the most insane, weird, ridiculously amazing dream last night!! It was one of those dreams that instantly gave me the thoughts “wtf?” and “I wish that it was real” as soon as I woke up. I need to talk about it before I forget it!! I’m not sure if I mentioned this before, but I’m a huge Harry Potter fan. I’ve read the books and seen the movies multiple times and I like to think that I can answer almost every HP trivia question thrown at me. With that in mind, you’ll understand how devastating it was for me to wake up from a dream that revolved around the adorable red headed Weasley twins, Fred and George. In my dream I think I was at some type of family get together – at least that’s the vibe I was getting considering I remember seeing my cousins and aunt and uncles in the dream world. Family get togethers usually invoke the image of sunshine, picnics, or a lovely welcoming home…But in my dream we were in some dark, musty, super janky building – and oh yeah, the Weasley twins just happened to be there. I remember doing a double take when I first spotted the twins in the dilapidated location and doing the classic “is that who I think it is?” to whomever was standing by me. And the thing was, it wasn’t even like it was the actors who play Fred and George….it was the ACTUAL Fred and George fresh out of Harry Potter. Be still my heart!!! So after I got confirmation that it was indeed the twin dynamos, my dream self worked up the courage to go talk to them. When I approached the boys, they were huddled over a piece of paper and writing feverishly. I asked them what they were doing and they both flashed me their classic cheeky grin and held out the paper. On the paper was a list of every single person who was at the get together with comments written beside all of the attendees. It was seriously like the ghetto version of the “Burn Book” from Mean Girls. I can recall my eyes scanning the page and trying to decipher the shitty hand writing. I could make out comments like “fat”, “tall glass of water”, and “lose some weight”. #RUDE!!! And then finally I found my name on the seemingly endless list of guests. The handwriting for my name and the comments was clear and perfect – and I swear the lighting in the dank and dimly lit room got better. By my name was the comment “most beautiful girl in the entire world” and I seriously freaked out. My heart was swooning, I was blushing like a thirteen year old, and I was totally smitten….and naturally I WOKE UP! 😦 As soon as my alarm went off I was SO pissed, because I was so aware of the amazing dream I had just had and I woke up right when things were getting interesting! I sincerely hope that my Fred and George dream comes back to me again tonight, because I’m very curious to see how it ends!!

^^^ I LOVE POTTER PUPPET PALS!

Have you guys had any crazy dreams lately? What do you think will happen next in my Fred and George dream? I wanna hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Happy Saturday. -Sarah