Dec21

Bad Day :(

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Bad Day :(

Fair warning to any one reading this: This blog posts contains self harm references – if that makes you uncomfortable, feel free not to read. -Sarah

Lil Red had a bad day yesterday. Like a really bad day. I should have been happy….my brother finally arrived home from Madison, Wisconsin for the holidays and I was with my beau in the evening. That sounds like a perfect day to me! Unfortunately it didn’t play out like that. I was still feeling pretty under the weather yesterday from going through cigarette withdrawals and honestly I was just down right depressed. Not only were the withdrawals making me more upset than usual, but I was also out of my antidepressants for the past week, which are supposed to be taken daily. To go into further detail, it felt like getting thunder stormed on while already being soaking wet. I cut for the first time since I quit over a year ago yesterday night – and believe me I’m not happy about it. I’m not sure what made yesterday the day that I cracked. I’m not sure if it was just the shitty day in itself that I was having or if it was a pile up of stressers from the entire week. Let me say a little bit more about that, but not too much because I don’t really want my business from my work all out on the internet. Long story short, I felt that I was being harassed at my current now previous job because I quit. In the midst of one of my withdrawal crying fits at home I cracked and told my mom about it, and she straight up told me not to go back there anymore…so that’s what I did. Anyways, yesterday should have been a good day, like I said. I was at a get together with the boy and some people who attended our old high school. I really should have thought it through more before I drove over there though because high school wasn’t the best time of my life. Being surrounded by those people again made me feel like such a loser. Here all these kids are, at great colleges and working and being awesome…and here I am – freshly unemployed, attending a not so impressive school, and feeling low as can be. After about a half hour in that misery, I left the gathering with the excuse that my brother just arrived home. I know that I should be thinking more positively about myself, and I am proud of myself for attending a college in general, but it’s so hard to remain in good spirits when you feel like you’re doing absolutely nothing compared to some of the people who are the exact same age as you. So, I get home and I was so happy to see my brother, and my family had a really nice evening together. But even after that I couldn’t shake this overwhelming feeling of worthlessness. I was crying in hysterics in my bedroom and ALL I wanted to do at this point was cut or make myself throw up…since I didn’t have any food in my stomach, cutting was the go to option. I went into the bathroom, locked the door, and did the deed. In that ten minute span, I turned back into the depressed cutter of seven years and counting, which made me feel even worse because it was such a huge step backwards. I’d be a liar if I said I didn’t feel better afterwards though, which really frightens me. I’m really hoping that this is just a minor misstep in the grand scheme of things. And now that I have my antidepressants back to give me an extra little boost in the morning, fingers crossed that my spirits will be lifted.

I’ve been super tore up and upset about this, but I know I can’t be too hard on myself or it’s just going to make things worse. In fact, I feel better already writing about it, and since this is my online journal, why not write it out on this? Now I just need to take a deep breath, shake it off, and keep moving forward.

Thank you so much for letting me vent on here, like I said – I feel better already. Please note that if you feel the need to comment on this and you have nothing nice to say, it will be deleted in a heart beat. You’ve been warned! What are you guys up to today? I think I’m going to go figure skating for the first time since I quit skating competitively about four years ago, so that should be fun!! My family might decorate our Christmas tree tonight too – we’re obviously running pretty late on that!! Have a great Sunday! -Sarah

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Dec19

Mystery Solved!!!!

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Mystery Solved!!!!

So Lil Red had been feeling under the weather since Sunday. My sister was sick with probably a mild flu and I’m sure that she handed it on to me. #bitter Since Sunday I’ve been absolutely miserable. I’ve been achey, tired, dizzy, hot and cold, nauseous, no appetite, and when I do eat I can’t taste anything. From Sunday till Wednesday I went with the safe assumption that I just have the flu. BUT today my perspective changed when I realized that I haven’t smoked a cigarette since Saturday night. I’m 100% sure that I’m experiencing withdrawal symptoms from not smoking. It all makes so much sense. I googled the symptoms of cigarette withdrawal and it added up perfectly. The website that I was on, http://www.quitsmokingsupport.com/withdrawal1.htm shined a light on the reasons why I’ve been feeling completely awful. Every symptom that I’ve been feeling, they seemed to have an answer for. Like dizziness for example was explained by the body getting extra oxygen now that ciggie smoke isn’t being inhaled. Not only have I been feeling physically shitty, but I haven’t been feeling too hot mentally either. This week I’ve been so depressed. I’ve thought extensively about self harm which I haven’t done in over a year now, I’ve been irritable, lonely, and just straight up angry. As I continued to read through the quitsmokingsupport website, I was able to check off all of these emotions one by one on the list of symptoms. I’ll tell you what guys…this fucking sucks. Pardon my French, but seriously. I finally can understand now why people go back to smoking after a week or two of not doing it, because the withdrawal that I’m feeling is absolute torture. This entire week I’ve been bed ridden because it hurts to move. I’ve had crying fits for no reason whatsoever and I’ve been the biggest bitch in the world to my family. Quite frankly, I’m not sure how I’m going to not smoke once I feel good enough to leave the house. Now that I know that I’m feeling sick because of not smoking, it makes me want to go outside and light a cigarette up in the hopes of feeling better. Oh what a tangled web we weave. 😦

Does anyone have any suggestions on what they did to make their withdrawal symptoms more tolerable when they quit smoking? I’ve been taking aspirin through out the day to try and ease the aches and it hasn’t helped at all. I’ve also been drinking a lot of water and eating more than usual. I’ve been feeling SO hungry all the time these past few days, but I still can’t taste anything that I’ve been eating. If you have any tips or home remedies that were helpful to you, please let me know!!

How long did it take for your withdrawal symptoms to end? How long have you been a non smoker for and do you still crave cigarettes now? Please leave me a comment and let’s chat – I need all the help that I can get! Happy Friday! -Sarah

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Dec17

American Horror Story – Episode 10

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American Horror Story – Episode 10

We learned a lot of really interesting stuff in episode ten of American Horror Story: Freak Show. Appropriately titled “Orphans” we finally learned the back story on season two favorite and returning character, Pepper. So let’s dive right in and talk more about it.

Pepper’s back story: We learn about Pepper’s traumatic past while Elsa is discussing how she accumulated some of her troupe members with Desiree. “I went to the place were people throw other people away…an orphanage.” This is where Elsa found Pepper, her first freak. Pepper never knew her father, her mother died, and her sister couldn’t handle the burden of caring for her, so even though Pepper was over eighteen she ended up at an orphanage since she had the mind of a child. Elsa befriended Pepper and wanted to adopt her, but since she was technically an adult, she was allowed to just walk out the door with Elsa. “I loved her. She was my first monster.” Pepper became a member of Elsa’s freak show troupe, where she was a hit after just one performance. Pepper was developing, and there were clear maternal needs that she was displaying that needed fulfilled. This desire was answered thanks to the arrival of Indian royalty, Ma Petite, who Elsa traded three cases of Dr. Pepper pop to get. “Sweet irony, no?” Shortly after the arrival of the tiny princess, Elsa could tell that Pepper wanted a life companion. She wrote to orphanages all over the country when finally a home for wayward boys in Cincinnati replied back. Salty was then introduced to the troupe. A lovely montage of the soulmate’s wedding was shown, and everyone looked so happy. “They raised Ma Petite as their own child and I was their fairy godmother,” Elsa said. All was going fine and dandy until tragedy continued to strike in Pepper’s life. First the murder of Ma Petite, and in tonight’s episode her partner, Salty died in his sleep. Elsa knew that the wise decision would be to get Pepper to live with her sister, because she didn’t know if she could handle another loss when she becomes a TV star in Hollywood and leaves the troupe. Unfortunately, living with her sister is the beginning of the end for sweet Pepper. Flash forward a few months later, and we see Pepper’s sister talking with Sister Mary Eunice of Briarcliffe asylum, the location of season two. We then learn a disgusting tale of how Pepper’s sister and husband framed her for the murder of their disabled son. A picture of Pepper being obsessed with her brother in law and slipping alcohol to the baby is painted for Sister Mary Eunice. However, this is far from true. Pepper’s sister wanted to have children, but she claims that her tubes were clogged. Then, surprise! At almost fifty years old, she goes into labor to deliver a baby boy, who you can assume has Down Syndrome thanks to her husbands use of the sickening term “mongoloid”. Both of them grow to hate their son and Pepper, who usually takes care of him. “It’s like living in a freak show,” spits the husband. So they concoct a plan to get rid of Pepper and the baby. The sister claims that she asked Pepper to give baby Lucas a bath after an afternoon of playing in the park, happily Pepper obliges. The husband then comes into the room yielding a knife and pushes Pepper out. Sister Mary Eunice states that the baby had his ears snipped off and was drowned in the bath tub, which was ultimately blamed on Pepper. And that is how Pepper ended up in the care of Elsa and the eventual care of Sister Mary Eunice at Briarcliffe. There were SO many scenes tonight with Pepper that made me cry hysterically, especially when Elsa left her to the care of her sister while Pepper begged her to stay. Lil Red was bawlin!!

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Tonight’s episode was mainly about Pepper and her story, but a few more interesting twists took place that are worth noting.

Jimmy’s jail time: So Jimmy is still in jail for the murders of five housewives that he didn’t commit. He gets an unexpected visitor while he’s locked up, Mr. Spencer. When Jimmy is asked if he murdered those women, he can’t answer the question, because he was black out drunk when it happened. “I didn’t kill them, did I?” He asks. Spencer believes that Jimmy is innocent, and offers to get him a damn good lawyer, who happens to have a very hefty retainer. Jimmy tells Mr. Spencer that he has no money or valuables to give….but Spencer tells him that he’ll think of something. DUN DUN DUUUUUUN.

Mr. Spencer’s new addition to the American Morbidity Museum: After Salty’s passing, Mr. Spencer urges Elsa to let him handle the cremation of his body. He insists that Elsa needs her rest before she goes off to Hollywood. Reluctantly, Elsa agrees even though she knew Pepper would want a proper burial for her partner. We then see Mr. Spencer hacking away at Salty’s head with an axe, while ashing a cigarette into an urn. In case you can’t put two and two together, Salty’s sweet pin head is one of the newest displays at the museum.

Speaking of the American Morbidity Museum, it had some surprise guests in tonight’s episode…Maggie and Desiree. After a fake psychic reading gone wrong to Desi and her new beau Angus, a drunken Maggie confesses that her and Mr. Spencer are business partners, claiming that after the performances they pick the audience members’ pockets. Desi instantly calls bullshit, and threatens Maggie’s life if any of the murders that recently happened amongst the troupe had something to do with her. Guilt ridden, Maggie tells Desi that she has a plan to save Jimmy and the troupe from the real villain, Mr. Spencer. To prove her point, the gals head off to the museum to see the recent displays of Ma Petite and Salty. They came at just the right time, because right as they walked in, a new display is revealed to the public….lobster hands.

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What did you guys think about tonight’s episode? How did you feel about Pepper’s back story? Are you excited for Neil Patrick Harris’ American Horror Story debut on the next episode on January seventh?! Leave me a comment and let’s chat! -Sarah

Dec17

The 1975 Concert!!!!

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The 1975 Concert!!!!

So last night I went to see The 1975 play in Cleveland with my dear friend Kyle, and it was absolutely amazing. It was everything I wanted it to be AND MORE. They were playing at the Masonic Auditorium in Cleveland which is a pretty average sized venue. Kyle and I opted for the general admission tickets and ended up in the first row on the balcony, which was actually really awesome because we could see everything perfectly. There were two opening acts before The 1975 went on around ten o’clock. I honestly forget both of their names already, but that’s okay because they weren’t very impressive. I definitely could have done without both of their performances, especially because they both played an ungodly long set. I’m usually not one to fan girl when I go see a concert, but right when The 1975 came on stage I couldn’t help but freak out. Matty looked drop dead gorgeous as usual. He seriously has the voice of an angel, and he looked like an angel in his white button down shirt with no shirt on underneath. #hubbahubba Before I elaborate on the show, here’s some pictures from last night. My iPod doesn’t take the best photos, but Kyle’s phone took some great ones, so I’ll post them on here when he emails them over to me!

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The 1975 played an hour and a half long set, but it still felt like it wasn’t enough!! I wanted to hear them play for forever. They played their self titled debut album in it’s entirety and then performed a few lesser known songs and one from their second album which is in the works as we speak. Kyle and I were saying during our drive home that the band sounds just like they do live as they do on their recordings, so that’s how you know a band has talent! Matty very well could have been drunk during the show considering he was drinking on stage most of the night, but he still managed to pull off a hell of a performance. All of the little teeny bopper girls that were standing in the front of the stage kept on throwing paper on stage which I’m assuming was their numbers or love notes, and this irritated Matty quite a bit. “Seriously, quit fucking throwing rubbish on stage.” Twice during the show he pleaded with the audience to put their phones away while the songs were being performed so that he could see everyone’s faces. It kind of felt like he was falling apart in a way. I’ve heard that he’s had a few crying break downs on stage during recent concerts, which kind of makes me worry about him. He’s so passionate and emotionally attached to his music, so I’m not sure if he’s going to be able to handle the fame that I’m sure his band will continue to gain over the years. I’m definitely looking forward to seeing them perform once they get a few more albums under their belt. It was so fun being able to predict what songs they were going to play next, but they have so much more to them then their debut album which we will see when they release their sophomore album hopefully sooner than later! I was kind of shocked by just how many teenage girls that were in attendance at the show last night. I didn’t really realize that The 1975 had that much of a younger following…but then again all of those fourteen year old girls who were worried about breaking curfew probably only know the song “Chocolate” and only went to the show because they think Matty is super cute. (Who can blame them on that one though?) All in all it was a really fantastic experience seeing The 1975 live for the first time. They’re playing in Columbus tonight and Kyle and I actually heavily debated on going to see them again – unfortunately, we’re both very sick right now so we figured that that wasn’t the best idea when we’re in recovery mode.

What was your favorite concert you’ve ever been to? What was the first concert you’ve ever been to? Leave me a comment and let’s chat! Also, make sure you check back in with me tonight for my review of episode ten of American Horror Story: Freak Show! Happy hump day. -Sarah

Dec15

Lil Red Recommends – Not Christmas Music!

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Lil Red Recommends – Not Christmas Music!

I hate Christmas music. Go ahead, call me a scrooge! I just can’t help it though, it’s all very annoying to me. Everyone thinks my hatred of holiday music stems from working at the mall for four holiday seasons straight, where the Christmas music was non stop, but that’s not true. I can remember disliking it long before my four year stint at PacSun. So I put together a list of music recommendations for the holiday music haters, to hopefully drone out a whole lot of fa la la’s!

Nick Jonas: Jealous – Pleeeease judge me for this one! I think this song is so catchy it hurts….it especially hurts my pride for enjoying it. I rarely play the radio, I opt for plugging in my iPod instead, but if I’m running errands that are within a five mile distance of my house I begrudgingly play the top forty hits. This is the one song on the radio that I can actually tolerate listening to…and by tolerate I mean singing poorly to it at the top of my lungs. Nick Jonas is all grown up and cute as can be, so now that the purity ring is off – holla atcha girl. 😉

The Wombats: Tokyo (Vampires & Wolves) – Ohhh yes, this song is indeed a PacSun throwback. We played this song within my first year of working there four long years ago, and I still love it. I actually was playing this about ten minutes ago when I was painting my face for the day. I think that if you can hear a song that was played at your work and not wanna roll your eyes at it, then that means you really do enjoy the song. I quite like The Wombats too, the album that this song is off of “The Wombats Proudly Present: This Modern Glitch” is simply delightful.

The 1975: Girls – I had to include The 1975 on this list considering I’m seeing them in concert in Cleveland tomorrow. I’M SO EXCITED!!!! First of all, Matt Healy is a babe with the voice of an angel. Having said that, I really adore this song. It reminds me of a more mature version of their fan favorite “Chocolate” especially when Healy uses the lyrics “I think you better go” which are used in “Chocolate” as well. I really enjoy the entirety of their self titled debut album, but this one is definitely one of my favorites. I can’t wait to tell you guys all about the concert tomorrow! Yippy hurray!

Usher ft. Juicy J: I Don’t Mind – I actually DO mind that I like this song…I mind it a lot actually. We play this raunchy jam at my current job, and it grew on me like a fungus. It’s a definite ear worm too considering I can never get it out of my head once I hear it. Juicy J’s verse absolutely cracks me up in this track, just like all of his songs do. He opens with “I’m just tryna cuddle up, tryna bust a nut” so be prepared for the feeling of “what did he just say?!” My mom loves her some Usher, but she refuses to listen to this song because of the suggestive content. Lucky for her, this song can definitely be classified as one of my funky time jams, so we balance each other out.

Phantogram: When I’m Small – This song is good for more than just being featured in the commercials for Gilette razors. I love this song. I’ve had Phantogram on my iPod for a while now, but have never really chosen to listen to them avidly until my beau played them in the car a few nights ago. I always wondered what the song they were using in the razor commercials were, so I was shocked to find out that it’s been on my iPod for months now and I haven’t even realized it. I love the lead singers vocals, they remind me of an extremely indie version of the Yeah Yeah Yeah’s, and considering the Yeah Yeah Yeah’s are one of my favorites, I can definitely get down to some Phantogram.

Mona: Teenager – I forgot how much I liked this song until I had it playing in the Little Red Love Machine yesterday. This track is a PacSun classic, and I am SO not mad about it. Mona is a SEVERELY underrated band, so hopefully this will shine a light on just how fantastic they are. Do yourselves a favor and listen to their self titled album and their newest one “Torches & Pitchforks”. You’ll be glad you did.

Ed Sheeran: Don’t – This song plays at Next on occasion and I hate myself for liking it. BUT WHATEVER. This is definitely another tolerable song that’s playing on the radio, along with “Animals” by Maroon 5, which I mentioned a few posts ago. Anyways, I can’t tell if I’m attracted to Ed Sheeran’s leprechaun looking self, but I have no problem listening to this sexy track until I figure it out. Don’t even get me started on his accent. Lord have mercy on me.

The Killers: Jenny Was A Friend Of Mine – I’ve been on a HUGE The Killers kick lately, and if you say that you dislike the album “Hot Fuss” – then you’re a liar…plain and simple. This is the opening track on the album and it really is the perfect opener. I know too many people that think that “Hot Fuss” is only good for the crowd pleasers like “Somebody Told Me”, “Mr. Brightside”, and “All These Things That I’ve Done” but that is far from the case. I enjoy literally every song on this album, therefore, I think that it’s brilliant. “Hot Fuss” is ten years old now, and it’s still insanely relevant to this day.

Modest Mouse: March Into The Sea – Modest Mouse is one of my all time favorites, and they always will be. I wrote a paper on them recently in one of my college classes on their effects on indie rock over the years, so I’ve been listening to them more than usual. Isaac Brock’s vocals on this song are just INSANE. The things that this man can do with his voice is truly a gift from above. And that’s something that you will rarely hear me say about anyone. The fact that he can go from this amazing stylized screaming to gorgeous crooning in this song at the drop of a hat makes my heart flutter. My heart is also VERY warm at the news that they confirmed the release of a new album in the future!!!!

American Authors: Luck – I’ve been listening to a lot of these guys lately, and I really really enjoy them. This song touches my soul in the sense that I can relate to it so purely that it has moved me to tears multiple times. So many lyrics in this song are so relevant to the way that I’ve been feeling lately such as “I’m sorry mother (father, brother, ect) – I know I let you down” and ESPECIALLY “How can I set us free? I’m what you taught me to be – shouldn’t that be enough?” So needless to say, if you’re ever in the Ohio area, and see a little red headed girl in a little red car with her red lipstick on and crying hysterically into a cup of coffee…you’ll know that I’m listening to this song.

So there you have it, my latest funky time jams. Hopefully some of these tracks will get you through the annoyance of hearing holiday music day in and day out if you’re anything like me and can’t stand it. Sorry that I’ve been MIA over the weekend, by the way. My beau is home from college for the holidays so I’ve been spending a lot of time with him! It’s been fantastic 🙂

What have you guys been listening to lately? Leave me a comment with your music suggestions and let’s chat! Have a lovely Monday! -Sarah

Dec12

#Overit

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#Overit

Alright, mama needs a good venting session, so here we go. Within literally TWO days of having my septum pierced asides from the other four nose piercings I have, I’ve already had multiple instances of people being rude to me because of them. There were two examples that really got me down, and one of them actually just happened about five minutes ago. I’ve been feeling really shitty about it, so I need to tell someone about it. So why not tell all of my readers?

Example One: I was at the dentist yesterday and had to get X-rays taken just like any standard dental check up. The X-ray technician asked me to take my earrings out, and I happily obliged. She then asked if I could take my nose piercings out, and I explained to her that my septum was brand new, and my four nose piercings cause me legitimate physical pain when I take them out, so unfortunately I can’t. I was extremely polite and was in no way rude to her. After I told her my facial piercings couldn’t be removed she gave me the dirtiest look I’ve ever received and didn’t talk to me for the rest of the process of getting my X-rays taken. When I wished her holiday greetings she replied with “mhm”. I was appalled. For one: the X-ray technician was at least forty years old or older – does it really make you feel that good to show such hostility to someone twice as young as you? For two: the least you can do when someone wishes you seasons greetings is smile back and say “you too”. Is uttering TWO WORDS really that difficult??? Sorry I’m not sorry that the way I look offends you, but you shouldn’t treat me any different than any of your other patients. This experience happened yesterday morning and it put a tangible damper on the rest of my day.

Example Two: Like I said, this instance happened about five minutes ago when I was running an errand. I was waiting in the customer service line at Marc’s to pick up an item that my mother had left earlier in the day. While I was in line minding my own business, a fifty something year old lady walked past me and said “Woah! Look at those piercings!” The lady standing behind me in line chuckled at this comment. I could feel myself sinking lower and lower. I couldn’t even bring myself to look at her to say anything back. What am I? A fucking member of a freak show? Since when did someone’s personal appearance become a laughing stock to someone? I wouldn’t have gone up to this woman and say
“Woah! Look at those wrinkles!” at her expense, so why would someone not show me that same respect? I honestly thought that I was going to cry.

I am not someone to be gawked at. I am not someone to be laughed at. I am not someone to receive dirty looks while walking around or waiting in line and minding my own business. I am not going to be made to feel like I’m a low life human being for the way that I choose to look. People always think that I’m over reacting or over exaggerating when I talk about how much all of this upsets me. But why shouldn’t it? I’m entitled to my emotions, especially when someone is treating me as less than a human being. I am a good person. I am beautiful. I am not unapproachable because of the way I look.

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I can’t wait for the day that I can walk around in public without being stared or snickered at. But until that day happens, please PLEASE treat everyone with respect. Black, white, purple, polka dot, covered in tattoos, or covered in piercings we are ALL humans who deserve to be treated with dignity.

Alright, rant over. I can’t say that I feel completely better, but this helped. Thanks for reading and listening to my sob story. It’s hard not to feel bad about it though. Have a fantastic Friday and an even better weekend! Spend it with someone you love! -Sarah

Dec11

American Horror Story – Episode 9

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American Horror Story – Episode 9

Heyyyyyyyy. Alright. So I had a beautiful post that I was almost done typing about tonight’s episode of American Horror Story: Freak Show “Tupperware Party Massacre” BUT, unfortunately my dumb ass didn’t save the draft, I accidentally hit the back space button and my post basically got deleted. I really don’t have the time to retype it because I’m super tired and have to be up early tomorrow to go to the dentist. #fml BUT I will do my best to give you guys a super brief over view of what happened tonight:

  • Dandy murders an Avon lady: He then sews her head onto the body of his mother’s corpse and pretends that they’re the conjoined twins, Bette and Dotte. #weird
  • A police man kills Regina: Regina shows up at Dandy’s house with the fuzz. Dandy doesn’t confirm or deny that he’s killed anyone, but he does talk a lot about how much money his family has, considering they own the country’s biggest frozen food company. He tells the police man if he kills Regina and works for him, that he’ll pay him a million dollars. Cash. Without a moments hesitation, the cop shoots Regina. #corruptcops
  • Drunk Jimmy shacks up with Imma: Uhhhh…sure? I guess he just likes something soft to rub his face in. To each their own!
  • Bette and Dotte return to the freak show: Elsa finds the twins in a motel that Ethel set them up in, and tells them that her and Stanley have arranged for the separation surgery to happen. (no surgery is going to happen, of course. Stanley’s a con artist, remember?!) Dotte, as we know is all for it. Sweet Bette? Not so much. But in a very touching scene, Bette tells her sister that if one of them were to live during the surgery, then she would want the new life to go to her. This apparently touches Dotte deeply, because she decides that she doesn’t want the surgery to happen anymore.
  • Dotte confesses her love for Jimmy: So once the twins are back in the troupe, they have a talking to with Jimmy. Well…more like Dotte has a talking to with Jimmy. She tells him that she’s loved him ever since she saw him for the first time, and drops her dress. “Not many men can boast of having a blonde and a brunette,” she says. Unfortunately, Jimmy tells both of the girls that he cares about them a lot, but that he’s in love with someone else. He puts the dress back on the twins, and they exit, holding each others hand (which was so cute!!!).
  • A Tupperware party gone wrong: So, if you guys recall from the season premiere, Jimmy gets hired to provide pleasure from his lobster claws at parties usually ran by housewives. During this particular Tupperware party, Jimmy gets kicked out for being drunk. “He kept missing,” scoffed Sylvia, the hostess. After Jimmy stumbles out of the house, who else should knock at the door other than Dandy? He puts on his most charming face and tells Sylvia that his car broke down and inquires if he could use her phone. She invites him into her home with pleasure. You can do the math on what happens next. We don’t see Dandy kill the ladies, but we do see the aftermath of what happened. Sylvia’s husband walks into the house calling her name, he walks into the room with the in ground pool to see his wife and her friend’s bodies floating in the water turned red with blood. Luckily, someone got use of the Tupperware tonight, considering Dandy stored their fresh blood in them. #yum
  • Jimmy’s arrest: Tonight’s episode ends with Jimmy getting arrested for the housewife murders because his gloves were left at the crime scene. If it doesn’t fit he must have quit…right?

I’m super sorry that this post isn’t very lengthy and detail oriented, but I really need to get to bed. If you have any questions on tonight’s episode, pleeeease leave me a comment so we can talk about stuff in further detail! What did you guys like about tonight’s episode? What did you hate? I want to hear from you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Goodnight! -Sarah

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Dec10

New Piercing!!!

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New Piercing!!!

Soooo I got a new piercing today! I’ve been wanting my septum pierced for quite some time now, so I decided that today was a good day to get it done. No better time like the present, and whatever. For all of my tattoo needs I go to my boy Travis at Odd Fellows who you might have read about in my previous Body Mods articles, but for piercings I like to hit up Defiance in Kent, Ohio. My featured image is part of the layout in the shop, and the guy on the left with the dreads, Mike actually pierced me today. He was absolutely fantastic. Let me tell you guys a little about my piercing experience today…

I’m a piercing junkie. I’ve gotten so many that I’ve lost count honestly, and in all of those piercings I’ve never once cried or felt intense pain. Well unfortunately that streak was ruined today. Ha! The clamps used to hold the area being pierced hurt so incredibly badly!! All of the pressure and pain piled on top of each other made me start crying…I felt like such a bitch! After the clamps were on initially, I just couldn’t handle it, so Mike took out the four piercings I already have on my nostrils to give the clamps some more room. He legit had to talk me into getting the clamps put back on, but it worked. I asked him if the piercing was going to hurt as bad as what I was already going through, and he looked right at me and said that the piercing doesn’t hurt at all. I thought he was kidding or just saying it to make me feel better, but he was right. “In and out, right?” I asked. And with that, the clamps were back on and I was ready to go. He gave me to the count of three and pushed the needle through, and I didn’t feel a thing. It was crazy!!! Mike put the horse shoe jewelry in and then put my four studs back into my nostrils. My nose was so sore!!! I bled like a faucet too, which was weird because usually I never bleed an excessive amount during piercings. I’m being dead serious when I say that this piercing experience was probably the most painful one that I’ve ever been through. The clamps felt like they were cutting through my cartilage and my skin felt like it was burning. It was AWFUL. And this is coming from the girl who’s gotten four dermals done at one time, four nose piercings at one time, a six hour tattoo at once, and so much more. I’m really happy with how my piercing turned out, I think it looks super cute. Mike did a great job. However, I don’t really recommend anyone with a low pain tolerance getting their septum pierced…I like to think that my pain tolerance is incredibly high and I could barely handle this one. Here’s a picture of the end result:

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If you’re ever in Kent, Ohio and are in the mood to get a piercing, definitely hit up Mike at Defiance. Here’s their Facebook page as well, so make sure you give it a like!! https://www.facebook.com/DefianceEmpire It’s a fantastic shop with extremely talented artists!

What was the most painful piercing you’ve ever got? What was your favorite piercing you’ve ever got? I’d love to hear from you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Also, make sure you stop by lifewithlilred tonight for my review on episode nine of American Horror Story: Freak Show! Have a fabulous hump day night! -Sarah

Dec7

Lil Red Recommends – Holiday Gift Edition!!

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Lil Red Recommends – Holiday Gift Edition!!

I absolutely LOVE shopping for Christmas gifts…and just shopping in general, so I’ve had a blast putting together my holiday gifts this year! Instead of venturing into the craziness at the mall to do my shopping, I’ve been purchasing all of my presents online at http://www.amazon.com – and let me tell you: it’s the best decision I’ve ever made! There is absolutely NOTHING better than shopping stress free from the comfort of your own home. After I stopped working at the mall in September, I haven’t really frequented it, aside from a handful of times. When I went to visit my sister at work on Wednesday afternoon last week, the mall was jam packed and it gave me anxiety!!! There were way too many people and the stores were so trashed that it made even window shopping obnoxious. One of the best things about Amazon is that it’s literally a one stop shop. They have everything you could possibly need to put together an awesome gift. There’s a few gifts that I’ve grown particularly fond of giving over the past few years that I’d like to share with you guys. Hopefully this will spark some ideas to help finish all of your holiday shopping!

TV Series Box Sets: These are literally the bread and butter of my Christmas gifts. It all started years ago when my mom would get my dad the Seinfeld seasons for his birthday or holidays. Then we started watching Curb Your Enthusiasm once we were confident that we’ve seen every Seinfeld episode known to man kind. My mom would get the seasons from the library but that gets annoying really quick when the DVDs skip from being scratched so much. So I took it upon myself to carry on my moms tradition and buy my dad a season or two for every gift giving occasion until we had the complete series. He loved it! Box sets of TV shows are so convenient, especially when the show you like to watch has to be accessed on the computer. Last year my sister was obsessed with Breaking Bad, but she could only watch it on Netflix, so Sarah the Gift Giving Extraordinaire got her the DVDs to solve the problem of her always hijacking the computer. This year I got my parents the box set of Six Feet Under, their new obsession that they can only access on http://www.hbogo.com. I also got my sister the last seasons of Breaking Bad to complete her collection and season one of The Strain. Unfortunately, Kristen already knows that she’s getting The Strain because she told me a few days ago that she planned on buying it so I had to tell her that I already had it pre ordered for her! She was still really happy all the same though!!

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Board Games: This might be kind of a lame idea but I promise you that it’s effective!!! Nothing makes parents more happy than family game night….okay well maybe there’s a few things that make them happier – but still. This year I bought a strategy game Cards VS Dice for my brainiac brother and his fiance. My sister has been talking about wanting to get Cards Against Humanity for a while and I’ve heard that it’s a lot of fun, so I bought the starter packs of the game as a gift to everyone in the family. Some other fun games that I’d recommend if you’re thinking about giving a board game gift to your family are: Catch Phrase, Apples to Apples, Crush, and Quiddler. Another thing that falls under the game category would be puzzles. I got one of my brothers a jigsaw puzzle of one of his favorite football stadiums so that we could assemble it together. After the puzzle is complete I thought it would be cool to glue it together and frame it for a cool addition to his room.

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Bath & Body Products: I know, I know – this is an obvious one. But let me fill you in on why I’m writing about it. Have you ever felt like a gift that you purchased just wasn’t enough? BOOM. Bath and body care is the perfect add on to a gift to make it feel more full and complete. The nice thing about getting somebody gifts to pamper themselves with is that they might not buy stuff like that on their own. Apparently not every grown woman buys bubble bath products anymore. Go figure. But anyways, I always buy some goodies from The Body Shop for my girlfriends to add on to their presents, and they love it every time. Just an FYI that in store and online The Body Shop has some extremely cute and very reasonably priced gift sets – you can check them out at http://www.thebodyshop.com!

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Vacation Planning Books: Is there anyone in your family or friends that loves planning vacations? My dad would be that person in my family! He loves traveling and planning amazing family vacations. Next summer we plan on going to Universal Studios in Florida, so as part of his gift I bought him the 2015 guide to the amusement parks. I’m well aware that lots of local libraries carry these travel books, but it’s nice to own them so you can take notes and highlight things that look like fun in them. Do you know for sure that you’re going to be going on a vacation with family, friends, or a significant other? If so, another fun gift for the vacation planners would be purchasing a gift card to a restaurant in the area or making I Owe You cards for dinner or souvenirs from your travel location.

Gifts That Serve a Purpose: How many gifts have you received over the years that sit in your closet to this day? My number one rule for gift purchasing is buying things that I know for a fact the recipient is going to use. My best friend Lea loves writing down her daily schedule for school and work in a planner, so I got her a really cute 2015 planner and a travel coffee cup to match it. My parents like having a 365 day calender to look at over breakfast in the morning, so naturally that was an obvious gift to get them. My mom needs a new laptop case for work, so of course I’m going to get it for her. Gift giving becomes super easy when you think about what each person would definitely use. There’s also a 99% chance that the people who you’re purchasing for are going to love the handy gift you got them, which will save you from the awkward “did you happen to save the receipt” conversations!

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So there you have it, the Lil Red Recommends – Holiday Gift Edition! Hopefully these suggestions will help with your holiday shopping this year! What was your favorite gift you’ve ever received? What gift are you most excited about giving this year? Leave me a comment and let’s chat! -Sarah

Dec5

OOTD: Holiday Edition

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OOTD: Holiday Edition

Hello hello! So if you guys recall from one of my previous articles “Jumpsuit Joy” then you’ll know that I’m all about the unconventional holiday outfit. (To me, any clothing that isn’t red or green qualifies as an unconventional piece to wear this holiday season!) Today I put together an outfit that I plan on wearing to one of the family gatherings that I will be attending and wanted to share it with you!

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As usual, here’s the breakdown of the brand name and where I purchased each item in my look:

  • Lace maxi skirt: PacSun, Kirra
  • Polka dot button down: Aerie
  • Black cami: Charlotte Russe
  • Heels: Famous Footwear, Steve Madden

I absolutely LOVE this outfit. My black lace maxi skirt was probably one of my favorite PacSun purchases I’ve ever made. The funny thing is, I never really wore this skirt until my beloved grandma’s funeral. After that, I completely fell in love with it, especially from the sentimental value that it now holds. I think that the lace detailing on this piece is just divine, especially considering that it’s just from a clothing store in the mall. The fun thing about this skirt is that there’s a slip built into it that ends above the knee, so the rest of your leg is exposed beneath the lace. I particularly adored the romantic, Gothic feel that this skirt has – it makes me feel like a walking Edward Allan Poe story. I also really like that my pasty pale legs are exposed in all of their glowing glory beneath the lace. I plan on wearing my Aerie button down tucked into the skirt, of course. This is another piece in my wardrobe that I really like. In fact, I liked it so much that I bought it in the other color Aerie had of it at the time which was navy. Usually I’m not a big polka dot fan, but the shimmering gold polka dots over the cream colored gauzy fabric won me over. I’m also not really big on wearing variations of shades of white, but this shirt had just enough pigment in the cream coloring that it enhanced my fair skin tone instead of washing me out. My sister and I purchased our Charlotte Russe black cami for $4.99 years ago, and I’ve never owned a better cami since. This little baby is pure magic. It sucks in all of the right places and enhances all the right places if you know what I mean, creating the perfect hourglass figure. Whenever I’m feeling bloated from too much Taco Bell, this is my go to quick fix to getting my slender stomach back! I’m trusting all of you guys to keep that secret confidential! 😉 My Steve Madden heels are about eight years old. Crazy right?! I purchased them for my eighth grade graduation…they were my first pair of heels and I will never EVER part with them. I remember these babies catching my eye all of those years ago when I was wandering through Famous Footwear with my mom and I knew that they had to be mine. The thing that I love most about these heels then and now is the wooden heel on them. They give the satisfying clack of a woman in charge whenever you walk on a hard surface. These Steve Madden’s are the reason that I have a shoe obsession to this day. All together this look probably cost me around $100. Keep in mind that in most of my looks an employee discount was used on some of the pieces from when I worked at PacSun.

So there you have it, one of my looks for this holiday season! I’m so excited to wear this outfit to family gatherings and even just running errands. Clearly I’m the type of gal who doesn’t need an excuse to dress up! What do you plan on rockin this holiday season? What’s your favorite holiday look or trend? I’d love to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Happy Friday! -Sarah