Monthly Archives: September 2014

Sep15

Just a standard blog post:

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It was an alright Sunday today. Sunday Bloody Sunday. I’m trying to hype myself up as best as I can and try to cheer up a bit, but damnit, sometimes it’s so hard. I’ve been having a really rough time sleeping lately. This is gonna sound so lame but I’ve had to have my mom sleep in my bed these past few nights. Jesus. I’m 20 fucking years old and I still need my mom there to help me sleep. Having her there has brought me such great comfort though. Without her my mind races a mile a minute, my heart beats like a drum, and I feel like bugs are crawling all over me. Fuckin anxiety man. It’s funny to me that my blog was originally supposed to be about fashion and music, but I’ve definitely been steering more towards posts about my mental health. It makes me feel better though. So I guess fashion and music can wait. Here’s to hoping I get some good sleep tonight and have a relaxing day off of work tomorrow. I’m extremely thankful for a Monday off! Have a great nights guys. Make your Monday amazing tomorrow. I’m gonna try my best to do just that! Love- Sarah
PS: Here’s a picture of a peacock for your enjoyment!

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Sep15

Some funky fresh tunes for your enjoyment:

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Dent May: Parents
Alt-J: Breezeblocks
Django Django: Default
Diamond Rugs: Blue Mountains
Jack White: Lazaretto (fun fact, I have lyrics from this song tattooed)
Jagwar Ma: Uncertainty
Tom O’Dell: Hold Me
Tom Vek: A Chore
San Cisco: Awkward
Family of the Year: St. Croix
Funeral Party: Finale
Yellow Ostrich: Whales
Little Comets: Joanna
Tanlines: Real Life
Psychic Friend: Water Sign
Dan Croll: From Nowhere
Los Campesinos!: Avocado, Baby
Bear Hands: Giants

Give some of these a listen and let me know what you think! Feel free to give me some suggestions too! Also, here’s a pic of my lyric tattoo!

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Sep14

Emotional. WHAT OF IT?

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Have you ever felt like your world is spinning? Just spinning. Spinning. Like it’s gonna swallow you whole and sweep you off into a whirlwind of shitty feelings, dark thoughts, and an abyss so deep and ominous that the only thoughts you can let yourself think is how in the fuck you’re gonna get yourself out. I guess that’s what I’m going through tonight. Or have been going through for a while. It’s hard when your emotions are either so insanely happy to the point that it’s almost manic to so incredibly sad to the point that you can’t even get out of bed. I’m so thankful for this blog. That’s a dumb thing to be thankful for…actually I take that back. It’s not at all. When I write about how I’m feeling, I feel like the cinder block constantly pushing down on my chest…weighing me down with constant anxiety, depression, and paranoia is slightly lifted. Only a few millimeters at most….but enough that I can breath a bit easier. Enough that the thoughts in my head aren’t sprinting at a million miles per hour but slowed down to a more leisurely pace of nine hundred thousand nine hundred and ninety nine miles per hour. So shout out to this blog. Shout out to writing. Shout out to sharing. Shout out to feeling a smidgen better than before. Shout out to you for reading this. Have an amazing night. Be smart. Be safe. Be HAPPY. Love and good thoughts – Sarah

Sep13

There are good ships, there are bad ships….

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But the best ships are friendships. Duh. My best friendship of over six years with my sweet Miss Lea is probably one of the best things that ever happened to me. I’m so lucky that we were in freshman year English class together, because it was the only class we had together during our entire high school career. Meeting her probably would have been impossible if otherwise, since we had different friend groups, lunch schedules, and extra curricular activities. In the entire duration of our friendship we’ve never had one argument, disagreement, lovers spat, quarrel, or whatever you wanna call it. We respect each other way too much to ever be hurtful to each other. I don’t think many people can say that about others. Both of us our blessed with the gift of making literally anything fun. We can lay in my bed and talk for hours on end and still find things to talk about. We’re so comfortable with each other that we can be as silly as we want and find it the most amusing thing in the world. Our next friendship milestone is finding the perfect best friend tattoos. However this is easier said than done. So if any if you have ideas for a unique friendship tattoo, please let me know! This is me publicly announcing how much I love my best friend. Here’s to a million more years of friendship!

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Sep13

Saturday bloody Saturday;)

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If there’s one thing I love, it’s a day off with my mom. I’m 20 years old but I’m still such a baby when it comes to my parents. I treasure my time with them like no other. My mom is amazing. She’s a developmental pediatrician and the work she does for the families and her special needs patients is really something to be commended for. Some of the stories she comes home with are truly heartbreaking. I remember one time she told me about a little boy she saw with developmental problems who got taunted by his classmates because his mom passed away. How can children be so cruel? Jesus Christ. But I digress, my mom and I are best friends. Which is awesome because I used to despise her. We can delve into that later. We spent the entire afternoon together cooking and baking and it was a fantastic time. It’s a memory I’m gonna cherish for forever. My dad is a cool guy too. I’m a total daddy’s girl. He’s way more quiet than my mom, but that just makes everything he says more affective. It makes his praise more significant, his jokes more funny, and his occasional angry comments more devastating. Because my dad can be a tough critic, I do everything I can to make him proud of me. God knows I try. It can get frustrating not feeling good enough though. It really makes you question your self worth, that’s for sure. I’m excited because we’re gonna watch The Shawshank Redemption tonight. He’s been insisting that I watch it since I never have, so it should be fun! Such a solid day off! My parents bring me infinite joy, and I’m so thankful to have them.

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Sep13

Lil Red Recommends:

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Looking for some cool new artists to rock out to? I got you. 😉

Frog Eyes: their album Tears of the Valedictorian is to die for. Specifically “Bushels”
K-os: this guy is talented. Every genre he dabbles in is on point. Check out “I Wish I Knew Natalie Portman” it’s a sick remix off of the beat of California by Phantom Planet. Nailed it.
Wolf Parade: I looooove me some Wolf Parade. “I’ll Believe in Anything” will forever be one of my favorite songs ever.
The Kooks: recently got super into these blokes. “Junk of the Heart” is such a sweet little song.
U2: do yourselves a favor and check out their new album Songs of Innocence. Blown away. I have their lyrics “after the flood all the colors came out” from Beautiful Day tattooed on my shoulder blade. One of my all time favorite bands.
Tapes n’ Tapes: these guys are very, very good. Give their album The Loon a try, it won’t disappoint.

More recommendations to come! Let me know what you guys think if you give any of these bands a try. Who are some of your favorites? Enlighten me!

Sep13

Fun facts

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Alright, let’s delve deeper. Let me give you the lowdown on my likes, my dislikes, my fears, my dreams. Let’s get acquainted. I LOVE music. I live for finding new bands, new sounds, new songs. My taste varies by hour. I had The Used playing during my first blog entry and now I’m playing Enya. I could go on and on about different artists I like, but that would take AGES. So I suppose the best I can do is let you guys know who I’m listening to as I write. Maybe you’ll find your new favorite band through me. Fashion is another big thing for me. I have a closet full of gorgeous clothes that I worked my dick off to buy, and I love all of it. My style varies from punk, to boho, to sassy, to sweet, to everything in between. In fact, fashion is what I usually get told to blog about. Now that we got some fun stuff out of the way, let’s talk about some shitty stuff. I hate the idea of being alone, I hate the idea of being a failure, I hate the thought of people suffering, I hate people who lack compassion, I hate people who are intolerant, I DESPISE people who hurt animals. My biggest fears would probably be working a shitty job that I hate for the rest of my life, my internal organs turning into gummy worms, a bald eagle flying into my face #america, and drowning in a kiddie pool. My dream would be to do something I love for a living. Like writing. Or acting. I love stage acting so much. If I could be in the theatre every day until I die, I would be the happiest girl alive. So that’s another thing that makes me happy: theatre. Being someone you’re not. Changing your skin for a few hours. Being intimate with other people. Working together for a common goal of putting on a great show. God, it gets my heart racing just thinking about it. Have a good night guys. If you’re out drinking on this lovely Friday – take a shot for me. – love, Sarah

Sep13

Stressin and depressin

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So, to start off with: hey! My name is Sarah, aka Lil Red to my friends and coworkers because of my bright red hair and lipstick. I’ve been told by lots of people to start a blog because of my unique fashion sense, quirky sense of humor, and flawless taste in music. So I guess it’s unfortunate that none of that will be showcased in my first entry because I’m straight bummin. I used to turn to writing in my journal to help me with my depression and anxiety, so I guess it’s kind of nice to have a journal in the palm of my hand. I’ll tell you what, lovely readers: mental health is no joke. You think you’re okay and over past issues which I’m sure I’ll delve into later, but it only takes a few things to fuck all of that up and have a quote unquote “downward spiral”. I haven’t felt this shitty in a while, so it really does feel good to write. Yay for being vague, but maybe that will keep you guys on your toes and keep on coming back to read my random thoughts, inner monologues, outfits of the day, who I’m bumpin on my iPod, and the list goes on. So let’s end this with a question. My own personal question to you…What makes you happy? I’m gonna try and remind myself of things that make me happy with every blog entry. So for my first entry, I’ll tell all of you that I find happiness in my older sister, Kristen. No one understands me like her. It’s nice to have a bond that only sisters will understand. I’m fortunate to have someone who brings me infinite happiness only ten feet away from me at home. Let’s get hyped guys, let’s do this. Take a blog journey with me, and I promise I won’t bore you. Who knows, maybe with every entry you’ll get to know me a little bit better, which would put all of us in the same boat, considering I barely even know myself anymore. Love and good thoughts -Sarah

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