So I’ve been feeling a little down lately, and it’s really getting to me. The worst part is, is that I’m not really sure why I’m feeling so upset. I mean the only thing I can think of off of the top of my head is feeling a little disappointed about my current job. I just feel like I don’t fit in at the store as much as I’d like to, or as much as I did at PacSun. I’ve only been working there for a little over two weeks though, so I’m trying my hardest to stay positive and shake my slump away. It’s not like I’m saying I want everyone at the store to kiss my feet and tell me how amazing I am, but I would like to be shown the same respect that I try to give to everyone. Has no one heard of the golden rule of treating others the way you’d like to be treated anymore?! It’s just so frustrating when I’m so nice to everyone and I don’t get shown that in return. Even when people are not so nice and welcoming to me I try my best to not reciprocate their meanness. The fact that some people can be so rude and off putting and not even care is so baffling to me. On my worst days where I’m irritable and mopey, I would never EVER put my aggravation on others. My emotions are mine. They’re not meant to be forced onto others so everyone can feel just as shitty as myself. This isn’t me getting on a soap box and saying I’m an amazing person, because I have my flaws, but I’ve never really been in a work environment before where people were mean to me. I’m for the most part very well liked. So I guess it’s throwing me off that I’m getting a major cold shoulder from everyone at the new job. Welcome to the real world, I guess. Ha! I’m just gonna have to grow some tougher skin and keep on truckin. It’s really all I can do now. Who knows, maybe this week will be better. Gotta stay positive! I’m glad that I have a lot of stuff to focus on to keep my mind off of the bummed-out-ness. Today is when I get my entire weeks worth of work for my online classes at Tri-C, so I’ll have a lot to keep me busy this week! On a positive note, school is going fantastic! I’m enjoying myself so much that I’ve already begun considering staying an additional two years to get a Bachelors degree instead of an Associates. I’ve also been playing around with the idea to do one or two one year certificate programs on top of my Associates degree. My high school years sucked, which I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned a million times prior to this. But if there’s one thing that I really did enjoy in high school (and there weren’t many!) it was learning. I loved being in a classroom and listening to the teachers talk, go through Power Points, and hold group discussions. I loved feeling my brain swell with knowledge after a particularly difficult class. My grades didn’t often reflect on my love for learning because I was having such a hard time personally. But that doesn’t take away from the fact that I would describe learning as fun. It feels so good to feel like I’m putting my brain to good use. I decided that next semester, I’d really like to take some classes on the actual college campus as opposed to doing everything online. I’m looking forward to hearing the lectures and interacting with my fellow students. Fingers crossed that I can make some friends in my classes as well! Tri-C is an insanely diverse school, so it will be fun meeting different people from countless different backgrounds. I feel like half of the fun of the college experience is getting to meet everyone! Whenever I think of all of the exciting stuff with school, it helps me feel more positive about some of the not so great things that are happening. Wish me luck this week at work and please send some good vibes my way!

Happy Monday! And make sure you check in with me either tonight or tomorrow for my review of tonight’s episode of Dancing With the Stars! -Sarah