So let me ask you guys a question….is there such a thing as being “too” nice? I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this in regards to myself, and my answer is a big fat YES. If you guys can’t tell from my posts, I’m a self proclaimed and told by everyone “sweetheart”. I would rather everyone in the room be happy before myself. This is a beautiful thing, and I would rather be walked all over than be a complete bitch. Unfortunately, this is getting me into trouble, because people love taking advantage of the sweet girl. Now don’t get it twisted, I’ll speak my mind and stand up for what I feel is right. I have no problem asserting myself when the time calls for it. My problem lies in giving people who don’t deserve it far too many second chances. As the saying goes, fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, go fuck yourself. I used to live by this saying constantly until a few months ago when one of my dumbass exes told me that I hold too many grudges with people. But the million dollar question is: Why wouldn’t I hold grudges against people who hurt me? Nine times out of ten in my life, the people who I give second chances to end up making the same mistake of being awful to me again, so why bother? Don’t think that I throw grudges around lightly, because I don’t. I’m not going to never talk to you again because you told me you hate The White Stripes. But if you repeatedly blow me off, or make me cry, or are just flat out mean, then why would I want to talk to you again? I need to get back into my “one strike you’re out” mentality again, because I’ve been getting fucked over time and time again by all of the people who attempt to weasel their way back into my life after they were in the wrong. All it’s doing is giving me a big headache, and I straight up don’t have the time for negative people in my life anymore. I just can’t do it. I can count the people who have never disappointed me on less than five fingers…but I’m content with that. As a matter of fact, I love that. It’s truly quality over quantity when it comes to my friends, and I wouldn’t trade these finest quality friendships for the world. So why do I feel the need to keep letting people come back for round two of making Sarah feel like shit? I guess because I’m such a people pleaser. I want people to like me. But you know what? That’s okay if they don’t. On my own personal journey to complete self acceptance, I have to learn that I can’t make everyone happy. The most important thing of all is if I’m happy. Taking care of yourself and keeping your own best interests in mind is NOT selfish. Honestly, it’s the best thing that I can be doing for myself right now. So to the people who had fun hurting me in the past and making me feel worthless and not good enough, let me be the first to say: BYE FELICIA!
As I sit here typing this with The Smiths playing in the background, my apple pumpkin candle burning, and sipping on my Diet Cherry 7UP, I’ve never felt so at peace with the decision to bring Operation One Strike You’re Out back in action. (#OSYO!!!!) Lil Red has got no time for negativity and refuses to let anyone stand in the way of her happiness. BOOM!
I hope all of you guys have a beautiful Sunday night and an even better week! Has there ever been a situation in your life where you felt you were being “too” nice? What did you do to handle it? I’d love to hear from you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
