Ohhhhh my goodness. Lil’ Red is TIRED. I’m tired physically. I’m tired mentally. Everything aches. These past few weeks man, they were a killer. I’m ready for my stress levels to go down so I can finally rest easy at night. I really need some me time. I’m long over do for spending some quality time with me, myself, and I. I feel like it’s SO important to take a break from everything and get back in touch with yourself. Sometimes when you’re just going, going, going all the time you loose track of who you are. I need to be on my team. I need to be a friend to myself. I’ve been pretty shitty to myself lately, and it’s really catching up to me. I suppose that means I’m gonna have to wine and dine myself. Maybe fix up a nice bubble bath, play some Enya, get a little wierd 😉 . Have sweet dreams tonight guys! -Sarah
Category Archives: Mental Health
Not sleeping – it’s just what I do
Ugh. Can I fall asleep now or? I’m so glad I have the day off tomorrow, because I’m absolutely exhausted! I’ve been laying in bed for about three hours now trying to make myself tired….but obviously I haven’t been successful. -_____- Do any of you guys have any good tips on falling asleep? If so, don’t be a stranger! Please share!!! Sweet dreams to all! -Sarah
Just a standard blog post:
It was an alright Sunday today. Sunday Bloody Sunday. I’m trying to hype myself up as best as I can and try to cheer up a bit, but damnit, sometimes it’s so hard. I’ve been having a really rough time sleeping lately. This is gonna sound so lame but I’ve had to have my mom sleep in my bed these past few nights. Jesus. I’m 20 fucking years old and I still need my mom there to help me sleep. Having her there has brought me such great comfort though. Without her my mind races a mile a minute, my heart beats like a drum, and I feel like bugs are crawling all over me. Fuckin anxiety man. It’s funny to me that my blog was originally supposed to be about fashion and music, but I’ve definitely been steering more towards posts about my mental health. It makes me feel better though. So I guess fashion and music can wait. Here’s to hoping I get some good sleep tonight and have a relaxing day off of work tomorrow. I’m extremely thankful for a Monday off! Have a great nights guys. Make your Monday amazing tomorrow. I’m gonna try my best to do just that! Love- Sarah
PS: Here’s a picture of a peacock for your enjoyment!
Emotional. WHAT OF IT?
Have you ever felt like your world is spinning? Just spinning. Spinning. Like it’s gonna swallow you whole and sweep you off into a whirlwind of shitty feelings, dark thoughts, and an abyss so deep and ominous that the only thoughts you can let yourself think is how in the fuck you’re gonna get yourself out. I guess that’s what I’m going through tonight. Or have been going through for a while. It’s hard when your emotions are either so insanely happy to the point that it’s almost manic to so incredibly sad to the point that you can’t even get out of bed. I’m so thankful for this blog. That’s a dumb thing to be thankful for…actually I take that back. It’s not at all. When I write about how I’m feeling, I feel like the cinder block constantly pushing down on my chest…weighing me down with constant anxiety, depression, and paranoia is slightly lifted. Only a few millimeters at most….but enough that I can breath a bit easier. Enough that the thoughts in my head aren’t sprinting at a million miles per hour but slowed down to a more leisurely pace of nine hundred thousand nine hundred and ninety nine miles per hour. So shout out to this blog. Shout out to writing. Shout out to sharing. Shout out to feeling a smidgen better than before. Shout out to you for reading this. Have an amazing night. Be smart. Be safe. Be HAPPY. Love and good thoughts – Sarah
Stressin and depressin
So, to start off with: hey! My name is Sarah, aka Lil Red to my friends and coworkers because of my bright red hair and lipstick. I’ve been told by lots of people to start a blog because of my unique fashion sense, quirky sense of humor, and flawless taste in music. So I guess it’s unfortunate that none of that will be showcased in my first entry because I’m straight bummin. I used to turn to writing in my journal to help me with my depression and anxiety, so I guess it’s kind of nice to have a journal in the palm of my hand. I’ll tell you what, lovely readers: mental health is no joke. You think you’re okay and over past issues which I’m sure I’ll delve into later, but it only takes a few things to fuck all of that up and have a quote unquote “downward spiral”. I haven’t felt this shitty in a while, so it really does feel good to write. Yay for being vague, but maybe that will keep you guys on your toes and keep on coming back to read my random thoughts, inner monologues, outfits of the day, who I’m bumpin on my iPod, and the list goes on. So let’s end this with a question. My own personal question to you…What makes you happy? I’m gonna try and remind myself of things that make me happy with every blog entry. So for my first entry, I’ll tell all of you that I find happiness in my older sister, Kristen. No one understands me like her. It’s nice to have a bond that only sisters will understand. I’m fortunate to have someone who brings me infinite happiness only ten feet away from me at home. Let’s get hyped guys, let’s do this. Take a blog journey with me, and I promise I won’t bore you. Who knows, maybe with every entry you’ll get to know me a little bit better, which would put all of us in the same boat, considering I barely even know myself anymore. Love and good thoughts -Sarah



