Have you ever felt like your world is spinning? Just spinning. Spinning. Like it’s gonna swallow you whole and sweep you off into a whirlwind of shitty feelings, dark thoughts, and an abyss so deep and ominous that the only thoughts you can let yourself think is how in the fuck you’re gonna get yourself out. I guess that’s what I’m going through tonight. Or have been going through for a while. It’s hard when your emotions are either so insanely happy to the point that it’s almost manic to so incredibly sad to the point that you can’t even get out of bed. I’m so thankful for this blog. That’s a dumb thing to be thankful for…actually I take that back. It’s not at all. When I write about how I’m feeling, I feel like the cinder block constantly pushing down on my chest…weighing me down with constant anxiety, depression, and paranoia is slightly lifted. Only a few millimeters at most….but enough that I can breath a bit easier. Enough that the thoughts in my head aren’t sprinting at a million miles per hour but slowed down to a more leisurely pace of nine hundred thousand nine hundred and ninety nine miles per hour. So shout out to this blog. Shout out to writing. Shout out to sharing. Shout out to feeling a smidgen better than before. Shout out to you for reading this. Have an amazing night. Be smart. Be safe. Be HAPPY. Love and good thoughts – Sarah