Whatsup guys? So we’ve come to the end of the month of February, and some good things happened and some not so good things happened. Regardless of the good, this month can kiss my butt, so let me be the first to say: BYE FELICIA!!
^ Lol, I love that picture!
Anyways, spring is on the horizon, and spring brings new life, new adventures, and a fabulous new wardrobe. 😉 Point being, I’m ready for a change. I’m ready for a change in people who I associate myself with and most importantly I’m ready for a change in myself. The Lil Red Lifestyle is all about confidence, and lately I haven’t been feeling so hot, and this needs to change ASAP. To do this, I plan on giving myself a mental makeover starting with removing these shitty self harm thoughts once and for all. February was a month of stressers and slip ups but I have a brand new beautiful month to better myself with so let’s get it! Another thing I want to work on changing is the way I view myself. I’m sick of feeling like I’m not good enough for anything or anyone and the only person who can change that is myself. Here’s the thing, I know that I’m a pretty girl and I know that I’m extremely intelligent but I don’t completely believe it. The before mentioned knowledge feels like I’m thinking about a totally different person, because in my head all I see are flaws. It’s so flattering to have people tell me that they think I’m pretty and whatever but it’s sometimes hard to hear it since I don’t believe it myself. (Oh what a tangled web we weave.) So the game plan is to give my negative mind a clean sweep and start over fresh and new. Maybe then I can get to know the Sarah that everyone else sees. I just want to be happy, and once I have a positive mindset, I know my pursuit of happiness will be a hell of a lot easier.
^^ I had to!
I can’t low ball the things that are great right now though – like how I’m absolutely killing the college game at Tri-C! That’s something that I’m extremely proud of! Speaking of which…I got an A on my first math quiz in two and a half years so I was freaking ecstatic about that!!!! I hope you guys don’t think that I’m a completely miserable sad sack, because I’m not. I have a lot of good days, it’s just that the bad days are overwhelmingly bad…and that’s not okay. I had some minor setbacks in February, but I’m ready to get back on the horse, and fuckin kill the game as per usual! I have one more week of class left until my spring break, so I’ll have some much needed Lil Red time so I can pamper myself and sleep in!!! So let’s do it. Operation Positive Mindset and Operation Kill The College Game are a go! My positivity percentage has been at a solid fifty percent these past few months so I plan on raising the bar until I get to a one hundred twenty-five percent, at the very least! 😉 #operation125%
I hope that the month of March treats all of you with beautiful weather and extreme happiness. I also hope that all of you (including myself) are treating yourselves with love and respect. Bon voyage and good riddance to February! Bring on spring! What are you most looking forward to in the month of March? What’s your favorite thing about spring? I’d love to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much Love. -Sarah
PS: My featured image photo flaunts my Beetlejuice jacket that I mentioned in my last post Spring Shopping Extravaganza! I love it so much it hurts! Beetlejuice, Beetlejuice, Beetlejuice! ❤