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An Update on Lil Red!

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An Update on Lil Red!

So things have been not so great lately, but I’m getting by. Not gonna lie, this past week has been a major pain in the ass. I got broken up with. I’m not going to go into any detail about the relationship because it’s something I don’t want to discuss right now. Maybe later. Maybe not. But it happened – and it sucked. I was left feeling like a complete idiot after the said “break up” took place. And the worst part about it was that I didn’t even get the final word in the conversation because the dude ended our chat like a little biotch. Not saying that if I got the final “fuck you” in the conversation that the disappointment I’m feeling right now wouldn’t still exist. But it would sure make me feel better to end the talk on my terms instead of him peacing out halfway through. #BYE. I haven’t experienced a break up for years, because I’m not really one for relationships. This gent and I weren’t even “official” but we were seeing each other for quite a while. Then, surprise! He gets a new “Facebook official” girlfriend and I’m left feeling like a moron. However, I can imagine this is what a break up in an actual relationship feels like. Spoiler Alert: It sucks ass. Whatever.

Anyways, there is some good news I can share with you! School is going fantastic 🙂 I got registered for my spring semester classes today and it made me very happy. I’m taking ten credit hours which is one hour less than being considered a full time student. I had originally only registered for two classes for the spring time but then I decided about an hour later that I should push myself a little harder. I then registered for third course. I’m getting all of my general classes out of the way now so in the spring time I’ll be taking a math, English, and psychology course. Then once the fall semester rolls around I’ll be well on my way to taking all of the fun classes in my Associate of Arts degree program. Yay! I had mentioned in an earlier post that I wasn’t feeling too happy at my new job, and thankfully that feeling has subsided. Things at Next are going great! The thing that I love the most about this job is that it’s a small business chain so our holiday season isn’t going to be anywhere close to the extent of what goes on in the mall. I’m really looking forward to working a Black Friday that’s going to be relatively calm, cool, and collected. It’s definitely going to be a nice change of pace from working four Black Friday’s in a row at the mall. I don’t know about you guys, but a lot of the malls in Ohio are opening at six o’clock in the evening on Thanksgiving day – which is absolutely absurd. There might as well not even be a holiday at this point. -____- I feel very thankful that at my store we’re more than likely going to be opening at our normal time of eleven o’clock the day after Thanksgiving. This is going to be my first Thanksgiving in a long time that I’m going to genuinely be able to enjoy. As opposed to years prior where all I did was spend my holiday dreading the midnight openings at the mall rather than enjoying time with my family. Hurray for work, school, and CHANGE.

When I take the time to write everything out, it makes me realize that this stupid break up with a stupid boy is just a bump in the road of all of the great things that I have going on. I feel energized, refreshed, and a whole lot better.

Does anyone have any tips on how to make a break up less suckish? If so, pleeease leave me a comment and let’s chat! Have a great Thursday! -Sarah

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Extra, Extra! Read all about me!

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Extra, Extra! Read all about me!

Well since it’s my one month blogiversary, I thought it would be fun to drop some Lil Red knowledge on you guys. So here we go. I haven’t lived the most charmed life. My teenage years basically sucked. I had a really hard time struggling with cutting and bulimia for years. I’m very proud to say that I’ve been completely self harm free for over a year now, so that’s really exciting. As awful as my experiences were, they really did help shape me. My near successful suicide attempt made me appreciate life. Quitting cutting and seeing old scars fade made me see my outer beauty. Quitting purging made me feel extremely clear mentally because my thoughts are no longer clouded with worries of gaining weight, and eating, and when’s the next time I can stick my finger down my throat. There’s so many things that helped make my over seven year depression streak possible that I couldn’t imagine listing them all. I don’t plan on listing any either to maintain the privacy of everyone in my life. So sorry you won’t get to know those dirty details 😉 . Once I finally stopped feeling sorry for myself and stopped feeling like I deserved to be punished was when I began healing. That was the day I quit all of my self mutilating cold turkey and never looked back. I live a pretty awesome life now. I have great friends, amazing family, college, and a cool job. Things are looking up.

BUT WAIT! There’s more 😉 Now that we cleared the air of my dark and depressing past, you guys can learn some actual fun facts about me. Such as:

  • I worked at PacSun from the time I was 16 until about two weeks ago. It was a great time….but I’m so glad I don’t work there anymore! Ha!
  • I have a lot of loves in my life – like my deep love for music, red lipstick, Vidal Sassoon’s Runway Red hair dye, and CLOTHES!
  • I have an amazing clothing collection from working retail for four years. I paid for everything I own on my own, which makes my wardrobe very rewarding to me. I have articles of clothing and accessories that dabble in every type of style. From punk, prep, boho, club girl, wannabe model wandering the streets of Akron, Ohio, you name it – I got it.
  • I’m the baby of the family – I have two older brothers, one older sister and my fabulous mom and dad. We also have two dogs, a golden retriever named Gem and an evil Yorkie Shih Tzu mix named Winston. Both are rescue dogs and I love them very much. (Note: Winston is evil because he only likes my sister, so you can’t go near her without him barking and biting. So annoying!)
  • I’ve kept a journal from the time I was twelve, and I love my online journal that is http://www.lifewithlilred.com !!

So there you have it! If you have any questions or concerns – leave me a comment and let’s chat! -Sarah

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