Feeling Old

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Feeling Old

Okay, stop rolling your eyes at the title because you know I’m twenty-four. Lol, but seriously, I have been feeling So. Freaking. Old. lately! I don’t know if it’s the fact that I’ve been working nonstop since I recovered from surgery or something deeper, but I have been feeling really aged and so not a twenty-something. And, the fact that the big 2-5 is quickly approaching in June isn’t helping, either!

I feel like I have this mindset of work, work, work and I have come to realize that the cool parts of my twenties have been passing me by. The travel, the spontaneity, the sense of adventure. Granted, the road to where I am present day hasn’t been an easy one. But, I feel like all of that time spent on the bullshit and now in the whirlwind of my crazy schedule has let a lot of living be left behind in the dust.

With a grocery list of mental health problems plaguing my adolescence, teenage years, early twenties, and even now when I have things “under control” to major family crises, getting to twenty-four year old me was a never ending struggle. And, I want to celebrate that accomplishment. But, damn, how does one pack up everything and take a week long road trip like all of the memes on Facebook suggest?!

I would love to have a feeling of excitement when I wake up. But, the routine of working my ass off Monday through Friday and recouping from it on the weekends is the definition of monotonous. Of course, I do have things that I look forward to, but they have felt few and far between. And, this is what has left me feeling run down, so blah, and just… old.

Oy, sorry for being such a Debbie Downer today, but I really needed to talk this one out so thanks for listening! Has anyone ever gone through anything similar to this post? How do you pepper in some excitement to your life? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah

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  1. I am sorry to hear of your medical issues at such a young age.never forget to have fun. life is too serious and overwhelming. If you have fun then life just clicks together. I also had the odd bad year which gets me down and I lost my confidence. However I’m getting to where I want to be. It’s easy to keep looking back on your life. Just keep looking forward and have fun doing it. Don’t work too hard give yourself s break. Check out my web page about reaching 48. Midlife is another hurdle to jump over. Don’t forget have fun. X

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  2. I couldn’t afford spontaneity in my early 20’s! I did have FOMO really badly though especially when all my friends were posting about amazing parties they went to together since they all lived in the same town. I worked really hard to pay off my student loans and started saving up though for special things like trips and my Burberry watch. Having something to look forward to and to see how quickly I could reach my goal kept me from comparing myself and falling into FOMO and feeling old. Now I am nearing 30 super excited for our next adventure and even thinking about children (gasp)! That makes me feel old but also ready when I look back at what I have done

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  3. You are not alone in this. I am 22, and feeling just the same. It’s just that our real life, the necessity to work, study and to go through some nasty stuff including health problems do not match the Hollywood and Instagram ideals… but it is like this for most of us! This is why we are here blogging – making the life looke like it really does. And you are doing a great job! I have been following you from the day I established my first blog in 2016, then I deleted it, and now I’m back – eager to catch up with everything! Wishing you all the best, and don’t feel moody, please ❤

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  4. Bwahaha girl I hear you on feeling old…..And I am older then you! :p It really is all about finding that balance. I admire people who are driven and saving for 401ks etc, and while yes that is important, I don’t want life to pass me by. I want to be able to enjoy life. You only get one and it is up to us to make it what we want.
    You are amazing and have accomplished so much and really are an inspiration. You deserve to take a break and spoil yourself a bit. ❤

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