Hi everyone and welcome to another week here on lifewithlilred! As many of you have shown an interest in my therapy journey, here is an update. Meh, it’s going so so. I feel like I have hit the metaphorical wall where nothing seems helpful and I’m running out of things to talk about. And, I’m getting frustrated with rehashing the same shit just worded differently all of the time.
I’ve actually been playing around with the idea of not going after the few appointments left that I have scheduled. But, I feel like that’s a bad idea. Maybe once every two weeks would be a bit better. I don’t know, it’s just becoming more of an annoyance than anything, and I feel like I’m getting even more pissed off by my weekly visits.
Obviously, there’s still a bunch of stuff in the ol’ mental health department that I need to work on, but I just feel kind of burnt out. Like I’m so micro-focused on it that it’s making me even more depressed, anxious, and just all around angry. I feel like I need a break. I guess that will just be something to chat about during this week’s session, amIright?!
Who else has felt similarly to the above during their time in therapy? How did you deal with it? I want to hear from all of you, so leave me a comment and let’s chat! Much love. -Sarah
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Yes I have felt similar to you at times when I’ve been in therapy. My experience has been that when I’ve been in that position I have been emotionally disconnected. I could talk feelings but not feel them. Living in my head.
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Yeah, I am very much in a going through the motions kind of state right now. -____-
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It’s really hard when for whatever reason the emotional connection isn’t there. It’s also a very common symptom of trauma.
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Hi Sarah, sorry that you’re feeling crap and I really hope that this passes. I’m not sure if this will help but, on and off, I suffered from depression for 15 years – pills, more pills, psychologists, psychiatrists blah, blah, blah and for me there was a turning point. Like you, I found that the more I talked about my negative feelings, the more negative I felt – they say that what we focus on is what we become and I guess that’s true in some ways. In the end my doctor said that the only thing he could do for me was to prescribe Lithium and something in me just felt like ‘this has gone to far now, I don’t want to go down this road’. I don’t know why that was the trigger but it just felt as though, if I took that drug, I would have to acknowledge that that was what my life would be moving forward – talking about feeling crap and then taking drugs to feel less crap so I took the other path. I think we all reach a point in our lives where we reach a crossroads and this was mine. I still have bad days, don’t get me wrong, but the path that my doctor showed me was too painful for me to ever take so I decided to stop the drugs and do whatever it took to turn my life around. It wasn’t easy all the time but I’m still here trying to live the only life I’ll ever have and not just exist. Virtual hugs x
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Ahhhh thank you so much for sharing that with me. Huge hugs back at ya xx
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Sending you so much love and huge hugs. I find that I go through phases where therapy is more helpful then at other times. and it really depends on whether I am being receptive and open to what is being said, otherwise you really are putting your head through a wall. Huge hugs ❤
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Yes, after a time I felt that way as it felt like there was no progress, I reallise now that there were small gains. I went to monthly, that worked better for me.
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Yeah, I definitely feel like the weekly visits aren’t working for me anymore -__-
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You’re courage is truly inspiring. I’m gathering the strength to see a professional about undiagnosed autism, ptsd, depression, ocd, and a plethora of other things. I commend you for doing what you do and I’ll always support you, love!
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Your* lol I’m a bit tired from spending all day cleaning my apartment.
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Thank you so much!! All of the power to you because that’s the first step! xxx
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